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<i>In Herman Williams'
seminal work on the joys</i>

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<i>of being a model train
hobbyist, he writes,</i>

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<i>"Many an hour have I spent</i>

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<i>"blissfully lost in a world
of my own creation.</i>

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<i>"For the model train enthusiast,</i>

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<i>"there exists a secret world
of order and symmetry.</i>

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<i>"Nestled into the corners
of our basements and attics,</i>

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<i>"we lord over a world</i>

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<i>"where the hobbyist
plays omnipotent creator.</i>

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<i>"There, in 1:87 scale,</i>

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<i>"the neighbors are always kind,</i>

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<i>"the lovers
always end up together,</i>

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<i>"and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

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<i>"you always swore you'd go."</i>

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<i>In life, of course,</i>

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<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

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<i>♪ Well, if you close the door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ The night could
last forever ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And say hello to never ♪</i>

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<i>♪ 'Cause all the people
are dancing ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And they're having such fun ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I wish it could
happen to me ♪</i>

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<i>♪ So baby close that door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That's right ♪</i>
Sing!

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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Encore, Allie!

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No!

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I am way too drunk

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to be singing
in front of people.

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Aw, but we love you! Come on!

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And I wanna keep it that way.

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Um, okay. That was
for my beautiful, sweet,

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darling fiance, Nathan.

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Who loves that song very much.

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Bubba, you wanna come up here?

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No.

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Come on!
It's our engagement party.

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He's very shy!

43
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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

44
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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

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Mm! Ah! Mm!

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- Did you like it?
- It was amazing.

47
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Hey, y'all...

48
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Um, I'll just briefly say that
she played that song for me

49
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on our very first date

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on a beautiful,
old piano she found

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at the back of an empty bar.

52
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- Well, you better go, girl!
- Come on. Come on!

53
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Always be closing.
Absolutely!

54
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Welcome to the family!

55
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- Allison...
- Yes...

56
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Every memory I cherish
in my life has you in it.

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Some of them
are just tiny seconds.

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The way you close one eye

59
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when you really wanna focus
on tasting something.

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I do that. I do that.

61
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I go, like...

62
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I can't believe this is real.

63
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It's real, baby.

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Thank God.
Mm.

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- I love you.
- I love you.

66
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Aw.

67
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- Okay.
- Hey...

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Um... Drink, smoke, be merry.
Yeah.

69
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And if you choose
to sleep with Chip,

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make sure he wears,
like, 11 condoms.

71
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I'm, like, literally a virgin.

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He's kidding. He's kidding.

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<i>♪ Time keeps on coming ♪</i>

74
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<i>♪ I've been all around ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪</i>

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No! No, no, no.

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- No. Come on, baby. No phone.
- Oh.

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When we get married,
we have to make rules

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about phones in the bed.

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Oh, shut up.

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You are on your phone,
like, ten times more than me,

82
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looking up rusty old trucks.

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Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco

84
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is a work of art, baby.
It's not a truck.

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- I'm looking at art.
- Yeah. Oh.

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Like this butt.

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I am so high
from that gummy you gave me.

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What the fuck was that?

89
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I still can't feel my ankles.

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You don't need your ankles
right now.

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Yeah, but I would
still like to feel my ankles.

92
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Hey, come kiss me.

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- Hey, babe?
- Yeah?

94
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This creepy doctor
from my sales list

95
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is really trying to flirt
with me on Instagram.

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Maybe you
gave him the wrong impression.

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What?

98
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Come on! As if!

99
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I go in there, and I'm, like,

100
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waving
my engagement ring around.

101
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You always say, "Flirting
is a part of the job."

102
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Someone's bound to get
the wrong impression.

103
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It's very light flirting.

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- Ah, okay.
- It is!

105
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It's like... It's just...

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It's sushi with a smile,

107
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so that he can write
the fucking prescription,

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and I can get a fat bonus,

109
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and then

110
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you and I can maybe one day

111
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move to the city.

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If we don't go to hell first.

113
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Oh! Why would you say that?

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- Come on!
- I'm sorry.

115
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I'm only pushing HUMIRA, like,

116
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I won't go to hell for
moderate to severe psoriasis.

117
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Come on.
That would be so unfair.

118
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Yeah, yeah.

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Shut up.

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- Okay. Hey.
- Mmm.

121
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It's just a stepping
stone, baby.

122
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I know.

123
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Do you think it's too late
for astronaut school?

124
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What?

125
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- What?
- Nothing.

126
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I could be
a professional dancer.

127
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- Oh, word?
- Yeah. Yeah.

128
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- You got them moves?
- Ooh.

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Wait, let me stand up.

130
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I'm way better when I stand up.

131
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- Okay.
- It's so much better

132
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when I stand up.

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- Are you ready?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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- Whoa.
- What genre is this?

135
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I don't know,
but my body just goes...

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Go.

137
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Is this modern, right?

138
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- This is professional.
- Wow.

139
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So I would appreciate it

140
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if you took me seriously
right now.

141
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I'm taking you very seriously.

142
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And then, we'll finish
with something like this.

143
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But I'm not gonna
show you anymore,

144
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because it's a work-in-progress.

145
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And the professional is tired,

146
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and I wanna cuddle.

147
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<i>♪ Came into this life
on my own ♪</i>

148
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<i>♪ And I'll try
Yes I'll try ♪</i>

149
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<i>♪ Hope for love
turn out the light ♪</i>

150
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<i>♪ And I gave my own life
My own life, my own life ♪</i>

151
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Oh, calm the fuck down.

152
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I swear, this road has been
under construction

153
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my entire life.

154
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When will New Jersey be done?

155
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- She's a work-in-progress.
- Never.

156
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Oh, by the way,
how's Ryan doing?

157
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Oh, you mean your future niece?

158
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Oh, my goodness.
She's so pretty!

159
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Yeah, the varsity coach said
she might start next year.

160
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Oh, yeah?
Mmm-hmm.

161
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She scored 19 goals last season!

162
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- Tell her. Tell her.
- Wow!

163
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Oh, my God.
You must be so proud of her.

164
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I can't believe
I haven't met her.

165
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I'm so sorry Nathan and I

166
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haven't made it down there yet.

167
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Don't worry about it.
I mean, it's far.

168
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We're gonna try to come up
more often

169
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now that our dad's
getting older.

170
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Yeah.

171
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Well, I've only met
your dad a few times,

172
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but that we can't blame
on distance.

173
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This is fucking nuts.
I'm sorry.

174
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Wait, so tell us about

175
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these wedding dresses
we're seeing.

176
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Yes, please. I couldn't sleep
last night thinking about it.

177
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Shut up!
You are such a good sport.

178
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No, he isn't. He just thinks
that after we see dresses,

179
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- we're going to go...
- Yeah?

180
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On a pub crawl.
Mmm-hmm.

181
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But actually
we're going to see a play.

182
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- You are?
- No, we're not.

183
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You said that we'd have
to get tickets already.

184
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No. We just gotta see some
shit nobody else wants to see.

185
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Oh, great. That's awesome.

186
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- Yeah, right?
- Great. Great.

187
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Hey, look,
it's finally opening up.

188
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All right, so I think
it might be a little tight

189
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getting you to a play,

190
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but, um, let me just check...

191
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Okay, so now it's saying...

192
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Allie!

193
00:09:04,884 --> 00:09:06,059
Look out!

194
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Here we are.

195
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You got me here so early.

196
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Yeah, well, it's

197
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better to be a half-hour early

198
00:09:29,735 --> 00:09:31,302
than one minute late.

199
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Grandpa, have you ever played
any video games?

200
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No.

201
00:09:38,309 --> 00:09:40,571
You've got that perfect
little brain up there

202
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and you're just melting it
away with that crap.

203
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Okay.

204
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<i>Nathan.-</i>

205
00:09:46,447 --> 00:09:47,666
It's Uncle Nathan.
Answer it.

206
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Why would he be calling me?

207
00:09:51,409 --> 00:09:52,453
Pick it up.

208
00:09:57,066 --> 00:10:00,244
Thought we weren't
talking anymore.

209
00:10:11,385 --> 00:10:14,431
Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Nathan. Nathan.

210
00:10:14,432 --> 00:10:16,911
I've... I've got
Ryan here in the car.

211
00:10:16,912 --> 00:10:18,696
I'm just dropping her off
at school.

212
00:10:18,697 --> 00:10:20,046
I'll call you right back.

213
00:10:22,353 --> 00:10:25,572
Yes, I heard what you said.
I'm headed right there.

214
00:10:25,573 --> 00:10:27,488
I just gotta drop her off, okay?

215
00:10:30,274 --> 00:10:32,579
See, that wasn't so bad.

216
00:10:32,580 --> 00:10:35,061
Mom says she wishes you guys
could find a way to get along.

217
00:10:36,454 --> 00:10:38,672
I... I've...
I've got to leave, sweetie.

218
00:10:38,673 --> 00:10:40,761
But I look like a dork
being here this early.

219
00:10:40,762 --> 00:10:42,198
I'm sorry.

220
00:10:43,112 --> 00:10:44,113
I'll, uh...

221
00:10:44,940 --> 00:10:46,898
I'll be picking you up today.

222
00:10:46,899 --> 00:10:48,421
Why can't Mom?

223
00:10:48,422 --> 00:10:50,422
She said they'd be back
from the city today, right?

224
00:10:51,033 --> 00:10:52,165
Well...

225
00:10:54,210 --> 00:10:55,776
she can't.
Okay.

226
00:10:55,777 --> 00:10:56,951
I'll text her.

227
00:10:56,952 --> 00:10:58,257
Okay.

228
00:10:58,258 --> 00:10:59,738
Okay. Bye.

229
00:11:00,565 --> 00:11:01,914
Tell me you love me.

230
00:11:03,307 --> 00:11:05,264
I love you, Grandpa.

231
00:11:05,265 --> 00:11:06,701
I love you too.

232
00:11:09,356 --> 00:11:10,749
- Bye.
- Bye.

233
00:11:32,118 --> 00:11:35,120
Mom, my head hurts so much.

234
00:11:35,121 --> 00:11:38,515
I can't even explain
how much pain my head's in.

235
00:11:38,516 --> 00:11:40,038
Can you click
on the morphine again?

236
00:11:40,039 --> 00:11:41,474
I've been clicking on it.

237
00:11:41,475 --> 00:11:43,650
I'm clicking on it,
and nothing is happening.

238
00:11:43,651 --> 00:11:44,956
Oh, shoot, you're right.
It is empty.

239
00:11:44,957 --> 00:11:46,305
We gotta get more.

240
00:11:46,306 --> 00:11:47,611
We'll have to get the nurse
to get us more.

241
00:11:47,612 --> 00:11:49,285
Nathan, why are you
looking at me like that?

242
00:11:49,309 --> 00:11:51,005
Like what?

243
00:11:51,006 --> 00:11:52,964
Is it bad? Do I look that bad?

244
00:11:52,965 --> 00:11:54,313
No, he's just upset, sweetheart.

245
00:11:54,314 --> 00:11:55,793
He's upset 'cause we've been

246
00:11:55,794 --> 00:11:57,272
so worried all night long.
Okay. Okay.

247
00:11:57,273 --> 00:11:59,362
This backhoe thing just reversed

248
00:11:59,363 --> 00:12:01,233
into the middle of the street.

249
00:12:01,234 --> 00:12:02,365
I know, I know.

250
00:12:02,366 --> 00:12:04,018
I didn't know what to do.

251
00:12:04,019 --> 00:12:05,280
I know, but you don't have to
worry about that right now.

252
00:12:05,281 --> 00:12:06,804
- Right, Nathan?
- Yeah.

253
00:12:06,805 --> 00:12:08,327
No, you just need to focus
on getting better.

254
00:12:08,328 --> 00:12:09,415
That's all you need
to think about, okay?

255
00:12:09,416 --> 00:12:11,069
Okay.
Right, Nathan?

256
00:12:11,070 --> 00:12:12,723
Yeah.
Sorry to interrupt,

257
00:12:12,724 --> 00:12:14,377
but the police are here
to collect a blood sample.

258
00:12:14,378 --> 00:12:15,726
Oh, no. Absolutely not.

259
00:12:15,727 --> 00:12:17,380
Now is not a good time.
She is in a lot of pain.

260
00:12:17,381 --> 00:12:18,946
- You have to come back.
- No.

261
00:12:18,947 --> 00:12:20,731
She just woke up.
Why are the police here?

262
00:12:20,732 --> 00:12:22,341
Unfortunately, I can't.

263
00:12:22,342 --> 00:12:24,691
Legally, the sample has to be
drawn as soon as possible.

264
00:12:24,692 --> 00:12:26,127
We waited for her to stabilize,

265
00:12:26,128 --> 00:12:27,215
but with an accident like this,

266
00:12:27,216 --> 00:12:28,608
it's imperative we test...

267
00:12:28,609 --> 00:12:30,349
What is he talking about?
It wasn't my fault.

268
00:12:30,350 --> 00:12:32,656
- Officer, she doesn't know.
- It wasn't her fault.

269
00:12:32,657 --> 00:12:33,961
With an accident
of this magnitude

270
00:12:33,962 --> 00:12:35,398
involving fatalities,
we're required...

271
00:12:35,399 --> 00:12:37,138
- She hasn't been told.
- Fatalities?

272
00:12:37,139 --> 00:12:38,444
She hasn't been told,

273
00:12:38,445 --> 00:12:39,837
you fucking asshole!
Fuck.

274
00:12:39,838 --> 00:12:41,708
She didn't know.
Mama, what's going on?

275
00:12:41,709 --> 00:12:42,970
- I'm so sorry, honey.
- What is he talking about?

276
00:12:42,971 --> 00:12:44,102
I'm so sorry.

277
00:12:44,103 --> 00:12:45,843
Nathan?

278
00:12:45,844 --> 00:12:47,454
Nathan, what's going on?

279
00:12:51,327 --> 00:12:52,590
They're gone.

280
00:12:54,766 --> 00:12:56,245
They're both gone.

281
00:12:56,768 --> 00:12:57,855
Who's gone?

282
00:12:57,856 --> 00:12:59,074
Honey...

283
00:13:14,699 --> 00:13:17,266
No, Mom.

284
00:13:19,530 --> 00:13:21,487
Why, Mom?

285
00:13:21,488 --> 00:13:23,577
I'm so sorry, honey.

286
00:13:52,432 --> 00:13:55,216
<i>♪ Wake up with
the sun in morning ♪</i>

287
00:13:55,217 --> 00:13:58,132
<i>♪ Go to sleep with
the moon at night... ♪</i>

288
00:13:58,133 --> 00:13:59,612
<i>Hey, guys! Bella here.</i>

289
00:13:59,613 --> 00:14:01,092
<i>Welcome to my bathroom!</i>

290
00:14:01,093 --> 00:14:04,051
<i>Today, we're gonna learn
to cut our own hair.</i>

291
00:14:04,052 --> 00:14:05,488
<i>So let's jump in.</i>

292
00:14:05,489 --> 00:14:08,840
<i>To get started,
we grab this first front layer</i>

293
00:14:09,580 --> 00:14:11,058
<i>just like this.</i>

294
00:14:11,059 --> 00:14:14,585
<i>And put your scissors
at, like, a slight angle.</i>

295
00:14:16,369 --> 00:14:19,371
<i>Okay, it's now or never.</i>

296
00:14:19,372 --> 00:14:20,720
<i>Go for it!</i>

297
00:14:20,721 --> 00:14:22,635
<i>♪ What their purpose
is on earth ♪</i>

298
00:14:22,636 --> 00:14:25,420
<i>♪ To love and be
loved in return... ♪</i>

299
00:14:25,421 --> 00:14:26,509
Fuck.

300
00:14:26,510 --> 00:14:27,901
<i>You nailed it!</i>

301
00:14:27,902 --> 00:14:30,382
<i>You're officially a stylist
just like me!</i>

302
00:14:30,383 --> 00:14:31,775
<i>Now, go ahead</i>

303
00:14:31,776 --> 00:14:34,473
<i>and grab the same layer
on the other side.</i>

304
00:14:34,474 --> 00:14:36,519
<i>And just go for it!</i>

305
00:14:36,520 --> 00:14:38,869
Okay.

306
00:14:38,870 --> 00:14:41,698
<i>♪ Happiness comes
from inside ♪</i>

307
00:14:41,699 --> 00:14:44,091
<i>♪ At the center
of your mind... ♪</i>

308
00:14:44,092 --> 00:14:45,179
Fuck.

309
00:14:45,180 --> 00:14:46,530
<i>Does it look even?</i>

310
00:14:46,921 --> 00:14:48,531
Uh...

311
00:14:48,532 --> 00:14:50,315
Not exactly. No.

312
00:14:50,316 --> 00:14:52,797
<i>Good job.
You look amazing!</i>

313
00:14:54,407 --> 00:14:55,799
Thank you.

314
00:14:55,800 --> 00:14:58,410
<i>♪ You can change
the darkest day ♪</i>

315
00:14:58,411 --> 00:15:01,327
<i>♪ Simply by
the things you say... ♪</i>

316
00:15:02,328 --> 00:15:03,937
Wow...

317
00:15:03,938 --> 00:15:06,985
<i>♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪</i>

318
00:15:08,552 --> 00:15:10,249
I love it.

319
00:15:13,469 --> 00:15:16,907
Oh, my God. Allie,
what the hell is all this?

320
00:15:16,908 --> 00:15:20,651
You have got to stop buying
all this crap.

321
00:15:22,304 --> 00:15:25,829
Yeah, well, one of them
is an acrylic nail set

322
00:15:25,830 --> 00:15:28,222
that I know you'll appreciate
more than I will.

323
00:15:28,223 --> 00:15:29,615
And the others
are ankle weights.

324
00:15:29,616 --> 00:15:31,618
Remember? We said we were
gonna get in shape?

325
00:15:32,532 --> 00:15:34,098
Oh, my God.

326
00:15:34,099 --> 00:15:37,144
Allie, what the hell
did you do to your hair?

327
00:15:37,145 --> 00:15:38,624
What? It's makeover Monday.

328
00:15:38,625 --> 00:15:41,627
- It's Friday.
- Oh.

329
00:15:41,628 --> 00:15:43,673
- It's so dark in here.
- No, please, don't open that.

330
00:15:43,674 --> 00:15:45,065
Mama, that is so bright!

331
00:15:45,066 --> 00:15:47,111
Did you go
to physical therapy today?

332
00:15:47,112 --> 00:15:49,069
Um, well, I tried to,

333
00:15:49,070 --> 00:15:51,115
- but I overslept.
- Allie...

334
00:15:51,116 --> 00:15:53,508
What? I don't need PT.
I don't.

335
00:15:53,509 --> 00:15:54,902
Allie, your hair.

336
00:15:55,686 --> 00:15:57,251
You don't like it?

337
00:15:57,252 --> 00:15:59,384
I just don't understand why
you would cut your own hair.

338
00:15:59,385 --> 00:16:01,734
Well, the girl said
it was easy, and it was not.

339
00:16:01,735 --> 00:16:03,127
What girl?

340
00:16:03,128 --> 00:16:06,521
This girl on the Internet.
She's an influencer.

341
00:16:06,522 --> 00:16:08,349
She influenced me.

342
00:16:08,350 --> 00:16:12,702
Such a pigsty in here.
I am not happy about this.

343
00:16:12,703 --> 00:16:14,529
Hey, Mama, can you tell me
where my pills are?

344
00:16:14,530 --> 00:16:17,010
Which ones?

345
00:16:17,011 --> 00:16:20,666
We said we were going to
wean off of them. Remember?

346
00:16:20,667 --> 00:16:22,625
- Did we?
- Yes.

347
00:16:22,626 --> 00:16:25,366
Because "we" are in pain

348
00:16:25,367 --> 00:16:27,238
and "we" need more.

349
00:16:27,239 --> 00:16:28,587
They're not gonna
give you more, Allie.

350
00:16:28,588 --> 00:16:30,023
- They have to!
- No, they don't.

351
00:16:30,024 --> 00:16:31,546
I need them!

352
00:16:31,547 --> 00:16:33,157
Listen to me.

353
00:16:33,158 --> 00:16:35,289
You're not in physical pain anymore.

354
00:16:35,290 --> 00:16:37,422
Have you been doing
the tapping thing

355
00:16:37,423 --> 00:16:38,815
that that one shrink taught you?

356
00:16:38,816 --> 00:16:41,034
Remember?
For anxiety and stress,

357
00:16:41,035 --> 00:16:42,862
and it calms you down on the...

358
00:16:42,863 --> 00:16:44,559
- eyes, and then the lips.
- Mom!

359
00:16:44,560 --> 00:16:46,257
Or play your piano.
That always cheers you up.

360
00:16:46,258 --> 00:16:47,606
I don't wanna talk
about this, please.

361
00:16:47,607 --> 00:16:50,435
I have the worst headache!
Can you just stop?

362
00:16:50,436 --> 00:16:53,351
Can you call the doctors
and help me, please?

363
00:16:53,352 --> 00:16:55,135
Which one? Patel?
He said no more.

364
00:16:55,136 --> 00:16:57,485
Okay, well, fuck Patel.
Fuck Patel!

365
00:16:57,486 --> 00:16:59,270
How about Goldberg, or...

366
00:16:59,271 --> 00:17:01,141
or Fong?

367
00:17:01,142 --> 00:17:02,752
- Allie...
- Please, Mom.

368
00:17:02,753 --> 00:17:03,927
- Just call 'em. Just help me.
- You're being a little...

369
00:17:03,928 --> 00:17:05,319
- No.
- Just help me, please.

370
00:17:05,320 --> 00:17:06,930
Guess what?
They all said "no."

371
00:17:06,931 --> 00:17:08,975
Patel. Goldberg.
Fong. Rosenberg.

372
00:17:08,976 --> 00:17:10,890
Okay, well, I'll try Vromen.
He loves me.

373
00:17:10,891 --> 00:17:12,805
Vromen is an orthodontist.

374
00:17:12,806 --> 00:17:14,285
Yeah, but he used to
flirt with me

375
00:17:14,286 --> 00:17:16,374
when his fingers were really
deep inside my mouth,

376
00:17:16,375 --> 00:17:18,898
and it was very inappropriate,
and so, he really owes me one.

377
00:17:18,899 --> 00:17:20,770
Allie, I don't like
how you're acting.

378
00:17:20,771 --> 00:17:21,988
You know what?
Enough is enough.

379
00:17:21,989 --> 00:17:23,773
You gotta get out
of this living room,

380
00:17:23,774 --> 00:17:25,383
take off your pajamas,

381
00:17:25,384 --> 00:17:27,298
and get your ass,
and go get a job.

382
00:17:27,299 --> 00:17:28,429
I'm sick of this crap.

383
00:17:28,430 --> 00:17:30,736
As if you have any right

384
00:17:30,737 --> 00:17:32,825
lecturing me
on medicating myself.

385
00:17:32,826 --> 00:17:34,218
What is that supposed to mean?

386
00:17:34,219 --> 00:17:37,395
It means, Mom, you're such
a fucking hypocrite!

387
00:17:37,396 --> 00:17:40,224
You don't think that I clock
how many Xanax you take?

388
00:17:40,225 --> 00:17:42,400
Or how many glasses of wine
you drink?

389
00:17:42,401 --> 00:17:44,402
You think I'm just a zombie
that doesn't notice anything,

390
00:17:44,403 --> 00:17:47,100
but I notice
fucking everything! I see you.

391
00:17:47,101 --> 00:17:50,713
So, can I have my pills, please?

392
00:17:50,714 --> 00:17:52,933
You're not listening.
There's no more.

393
00:18:00,158 --> 00:18:02,072
You get right back here,

394
00:18:02,073 --> 00:18:03,682
- you little brat!
- No!

395
00:18:03,683 --> 00:18:06,119
What in the hell do you think
you are doing?

396
00:18:06,120 --> 00:18:07,381
Get out of there!

397
00:18:07,382 --> 00:18:08,556
Get out of there!
Get off me!

398
00:18:08,557 --> 00:18:10,036
- No! Get out of there!
- Let go!

399
00:18:10,037 --> 00:18:12,299
What are you doing?
No! Are they in here?

400
00:18:12,300 --> 00:18:15,085
Get back! Cut it out!
You are hurting me!

401
00:18:15,086 --> 00:18:16,434
Stop it!

402
00:18:16,435 --> 00:18:18,219
Stop it! Put that back!
Mom!

403
00:18:19,307 --> 00:18:20,351
No.

404
00:18:20,352 --> 00:18:21,787
- Open the door.
- No.

405
00:18:21,788 --> 00:18:23,397
- Open the fucking door!
- Stop it! Stop it.

406
00:18:23,398 --> 00:18:24,747
- Mom, let me out.
- No.

407
00:18:24,748 --> 00:18:26,923
Let me out. Let me out!

408
00:18:26,924 --> 00:18:28,185
Mama!

409
00:18:28,186 --> 00:18:29,969
- No! Stop it!
- Give me those... Ow.

410
00:18:29,970 --> 00:18:32,145
Stop it!
Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow.

411
00:18:32,146 --> 00:18:34,279
You fucking crazy little brat.
No!

412
00:18:36,890 --> 00:18:38,848
Shit!

413
00:18:38,849 --> 00:18:41,154
No, no, no, no, no, no.

414
00:18:41,155 --> 00:18:43,157
Mama, no! Please. No!

415
00:18:45,333 --> 00:18:47,378
Why the fuck did you do that?

416
00:18:47,379 --> 00:18:48,553
I'm in pain!

417
00:18:48,554 --> 00:18:49,684
I don't give a shit!

418
00:18:49,685 --> 00:18:51,164
Your daughter is in actual pain!

419
00:18:51,165 --> 00:18:52,600
I don't give a shit!

420
00:18:52,601 --> 00:18:56,169
I fucking hate you so much!

421
00:18:56,170 --> 00:18:57,824
You're bleeding!

422
00:19:02,002 --> 00:19:03,350
You get back here right now.

423
00:19:03,351 --> 00:19:04,787
Leave me alone.
You come back here.

424
00:19:04,788 --> 00:19:06,348
Leave me alone.
I'm gonna grab your...

425
00:19:07,181 --> 00:19:08,529
Leave me the fuck alone!

426
00:19:08,530 --> 00:19:09,704
I'm not gonna leave you
the fuck alone,

427
00:19:09,705 --> 00:19:10,881
- you little brat.
- Ugh!

428
00:19:16,582 --> 00:19:17,930
Allison!

429
00:19:17,931 --> 00:19:20,063
Leave me alone!
Where are you going?

430
00:19:20,064 --> 00:19:21,935
Leave me alone!

431
00:19:33,164 --> 00:19:34,948
Let's go, Ryan!

432
00:19:36,254 --> 00:19:38,082
Attagirl! Attagirl!

433
00:19:44,740 --> 00:19:46,741
Fuck!

434
00:19:46,742 --> 00:19:48,482
So you're the Ryan
that's been talking to Damien?

435
00:19:48,483 --> 00:19:49,744
Get the fuck outta my face.

436
00:19:49,745 --> 00:19:50,963
See, you talk to people
like that, bitch,

437
00:19:50,964 --> 00:19:52,486
that's why you have
no fucking friends.

438
00:19:52,487 --> 00:19:53,661
Why are you hitting on me, huh?

439
00:19:53,662 --> 00:19:55,141
Uh, I'm not the one
named "Ryan."

440
00:19:55,142 --> 00:19:56,882
It's a fucking dyke's name.
You a dyke?

441
00:19:56,883 --> 00:19:59,799
- Only when I fuck your mother.
- Oh, at least I have a mother.

442
00:20:03,237 --> 00:20:04,804
What the fuck
did you just say to me?

443
00:20:05,544 --> 00:20:06,805
Hey!

444
00:20:06,806 --> 00:20:10,070
Stay away from Damien,
you fucking whore.

445
00:20:11,028 --> 00:20:12,071
Hey!

446
00:20:12,072 --> 00:20:14,031
Break that up, Ref!

447
00:20:15,423 --> 00:20:16,511
Break it up.
Break it up!

448
00:20:16,816 --> 00:20:17,861
Hey!

449
00:20:20,472 --> 00:20:23,517
Hey! That's it!
You're both out. Red card.

450
00:20:23,518 --> 00:20:24,910
Ryan, what the hell was that?

451
00:20:24,911 --> 00:20:26,390
I quit.

452
00:20:26,391 --> 00:20:28,696
I quit.
I hate this fucking game.

453
00:20:28,697 --> 00:20:30,742
Why? Because you got
in a fight?

454
00:20:30,743 --> 00:20:32,787
Come on, that's not you.

455
00:20:32,788 --> 00:20:34,920
You're tough.
You're not a quitter.

456
00:20:34,921 --> 00:20:37,967
- She made fun of Mom.
- What?

457
00:20:37,968 --> 00:20:40,144
She said,
"At least I have a mom."

458
00:20:42,929 --> 00:20:44,496
Well, fuck her.

459
00:20:48,195 --> 00:20:49,283
Well...

460
00:20:50,632 --> 00:20:53,069
And what kind of a punch
was that?

461
00:20:53,070 --> 00:20:55,332
You throw this hard right hook

462
00:20:55,333 --> 00:20:57,988
and then you leave yourself
wide open for the jab.

463
00:20:59,076 --> 00:21:00,773
We're gonna have to work
on that.

464
00:21:18,486 --> 00:21:19,660
Hi.

465
00:21:19,661 --> 00:21:22,228
I'm here to get
a prescription refilled.

466
00:21:22,229 --> 00:21:25,057
Last name, Johnson.
Birthday, August 24th.

467
00:21:25,058 --> 00:21:27,016
Okay. For which medication?

468
00:21:27,017 --> 00:21:30,149
Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin.

469
00:21:30,150 --> 00:21:32,325
It says here
you are out of refills.

470
00:21:32,326 --> 00:21:34,937
I see you've been on them
for over a year now.

471
00:21:34,938 --> 00:21:37,026
Your doctor's probably trying
to wean you off of them.

472
00:21:37,027 --> 00:21:39,419
As I'm sure you know,
they can be very addictive.

473
00:21:39,420 --> 00:21:41,292
Oh, really?
I hadn't fucking heard that.

474
00:21:43,163 --> 00:21:44,294
Sorry.

475
00:21:44,295 --> 00:21:46,036
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

476
00:21:46,775 --> 00:21:48,951
Listen...

477
00:21:48,952 --> 00:21:50,865
I was in a really bad
car accident,

478
00:21:50,866 --> 00:21:53,956
and I need them,
because I'm in a lot of pain.

479
00:21:53,957 --> 00:21:55,001
Just now?

480
00:21:56,220 --> 00:21:57,350
What? No.

481
00:21:57,351 --> 00:21:59,918
Your elbow is bleeding.

482
00:21:59,919 --> 00:22:01,702
Oh, shit.
Look, it's fine.

483
00:22:01,703 --> 00:22:03,226
Let me go get you a bandage.

484
00:22:03,227 --> 00:22:05,098
I don't need
a fucking bandage. It's fine.

485
00:22:09,363 --> 00:22:10,451
Then take this.

486
00:22:13,280 --> 00:22:15,456
Oh, my goodness.
Thank you so much. Thank you.

487
00:22:17,763 --> 00:22:20,418
I feel so much better now.
Thank you.

488
00:22:20,940 --> 00:22:22,289
Fucking bitch.

489
00:22:33,648 --> 00:22:35,519
<i>Burn,
but guess what that burn is?</i>

490
00:22:35,520 --> 00:22:38,609
<i>That burn is in your soul.
It is lifting you up.</i>

491
00:22:38,610 --> 00:22:40,045
<i>You are climbing that mountain</i>

492
00:22:40,046 --> 00:22:41,960
<i>and you are reaching
higher heights</i>

493
00:22:41,961 --> 00:22:43,614
<i>than you ever have before.</i>

494
00:22:43,615 --> 00:22:44,964
<i>Keep pedaling.</i>

495
00:24:20,842 --> 00:24:23,061
Hi.
Hi!

496
00:24:23,062 --> 00:24:24,890
- Hey!
- Hi!

497
00:24:26,021 --> 00:24:27,152
Hi.

498
00:24:27,153 --> 00:24:29,763
Oh, my God. I love your hair!

499
00:24:29,764 --> 00:24:33,419
- It is so chic. Who did it?
- Ah, thank you! Um...

500
00:24:33,420 --> 00:24:36,030
I, uh, got a new gal.

501
00:24:36,031 --> 00:24:38,598
Well, I gotta get her number.

502
00:24:38,599 --> 00:24:40,034
Okay.

503
00:24:40,035 --> 00:24:42,994
Oh, I was so happy
that you reached out.

504
00:24:42,995 --> 00:24:45,953
Because you weren't responding
to any of my texts.

505
00:24:45,954 --> 00:24:47,825
Of course, I wanted
to give you your space,

506
00:24:47,826 --> 00:24:49,522
but I was worried.

507
00:24:49,523 --> 00:24:51,002
Hi, good morning.
Hey!

508
00:24:51,003 --> 00:24:52,308
Can I get you anything?

509
00:24:52,309 --> 00:24:55,181
Uh, yeah. Can I please get
a Jack and Coke?

510
00:24:55,703 --> 00:24:57,704
Uh...

511
00:24:57,705 --> 00:25:00,142
Sorry, our bar doesn't
actually open until 11:00.

512
00:25:00,143 --> 00:25:01,491
Oh.

513
00:25:01,492 --> 00:25:04,972
Uh, okay. In that case,
I'll get a black coffee.

514
00:25:04,973 --> 00:25:06,758
- Oat milk latte.
- You got it.

515
00:25:10,065 --> 00:25:12,458
So, how's, how's work?

516
00:25:12,459 --> 00:25:13,633
You're still at Purdue, right?

517
00:25:13,634 --> 00:25:15,200
- Still repping Purdue.
- Yeah.

518
00:25:15,201 --> 00:25:16,593
You'd think it would've been
a shit show

519
00:25:16,594 --> 00:25:18,421
because of the bankruptcy
and all the lawsuits.

520
00:25:18,422 --> 00:25:20,292
- Mm.
- But, between you and me,

521
00:25:20,293 --> 00:25:22,164
my numbers
have actually increased.

522
00:25:22,165 --> 00:25:23,426
Wow.

523
00:25:23,427 --> 00:25:26,777
My bonus last quarter
was insane.

524
00:25:26,778 --> 00:25:28,953
- It sells itself.
- Yeah.

525
00:25:28,954 --> 00:25:30,172
Karl Marx was wrong.

526
00:25:30,173 --> 00:25:32,304
Turns out
the opiate of the masses

527
00:25:32,305 --> 00:25:33,393
is opium.

528
00:25:38,137 --> 00:25:39,311
Anyway.

529
00:25:39,312 --> 00:25:40,573
How are you doing?

530
00:25:40,574 --> 00:25:42,096
When are you going back to work?

531
00:25:42,097 --> 00:25:43,446
Listen,
I'm just gonna cut right to it

532
00:25:43,447 --> 00:25:44,534
because you're my friend

533
00:25:44,535 --> 00:25:46,536
and I know
you're gonna understand.

534
00:25:46,537 --> 00:25:47,712
Um...

535
00:25:48,843 --> 00:25:51,454
I'm still in a lot of pain.

536
00:25:51,455 --> 00:25:52,977
Oh, Allie...

537
00:25:52,978 --> 00:25:57,111
I know, and my docs
are cutting my Oxy scripts

538
00:25:57,112 --> 00:25:59,375
because everyone's
really freaked out

539
00:25:59,376 --> 00:26:00,854
about addiction these days.

540
00:26:00,855 --> 00:26:02,682
Uh...

541
00:26:02,683 --> 00:26:05,381
So, I was wondering
if it would be possible...

542
00:26:05,382 --> 00:26:07,252
Allie, please tell me
you didn't invite me

543
00:26:07,253 --> 00:26:09,516
to breakfast
to hit me up for pills.

544
00:26:09,908 --> 00:26:11,038
No.

545
00:26:11,039 --> 00:26:13,040
No, no, no, no, no.

546
00:26:13,041 --> 00:26:15,260
It's just until I can get in,
and see my docs.

547
00:26:15,261 --> 00:26:17,436
Um, because my fucking mother,

548
00:26:17,437 --> 00:26:20,223
she threw my last refill
into the toilet, so...

549
00:26:20,614 --> 00:26:22,267
No way.

550
00:26:22,268 --> 00:26:23,964
Are you fucking
with me right now?

551
00:26:23,965 --> 00:26:25,444
No.

552
00:26:25,445 --> 00:26:27,446
If you have a problem,
you need to get some help.

553
00:26:27,447 --> 00:26:29,883
I can help you
find the right rehab.

554
00:26:29,884 --> 00:26:31,929
Please don't hand me a pamphlet.

555
00:26:31,930 --> 00:26:33,452
I already have one.

556
00:26:33,453 --> 00:26:35,759
Well, then find them
on the street if you have to.

557
00:26:35,760 --> 00:26:37,804
Every dive bar
in this town's got a guy

558
00:26:37,805 --> 00:26:39,980
with a pharmacy
in his front pocket.

559
00:26:39,981 --> 00:26:41,853
You know, Becka,

560
00:26:43,115 --> 00:26:45,204
I really didn't want to do this.

561
00:26:46,988 --> 00:26:48,076
But...

562
00:26:50,035 --> 00:26:51,470
there's a handful of things

563
00:26:51,471 --> 00:26:54,734
that happened
at your bachelorette party

564
00:26:54,735 --> 00:26:58,303
that I'm pretty sure
you want to be kept private.

565
00:26:58,304 --> 00:27:01,959
Allison, are you trying
to blackmail me for OxyContin?

566
00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:03,788
I'm just asking you for help.

567
00:27:04,919 --> 00:27:07,139
Like, as a friend.

568
00:27:08,967 --> 00:27:11,143
But you did blow that dancer.

569
00:27:12,100 --> 00:27:13,362
It happened for a second.

570
00:27:13,363 --> 00:27:16,496
I know, I know.
But you did it, and I saw.

571
00:27:17,497 --> 00:27:18,584
It never went in my mouth.

572
00:27:18,585 --> 00:27:22,153
It was in your mouth.

573
00:27:22,154 --> 00:27:23,416
Past the tip.

574
00:27:24,374 --> 00:27:26,898
Past the fucking tip.

575
00:27:27,942 --> 00:27:29,292
Allie, you need help.

576
00:27:30,467 --> 00:27:32,119
Destroy my life if you have to.

577
00:27:32,120 --> 00:27:35,732
But for the love of God,
get some fucking help!

578
00:27:35,733 --> 00:27:37,211
Okay, bye.
Fuck you.

579
00:27:37,212 --> 00:27:38,649
Fuck you!

580
00:27:44,568 --> 00:27:46,874
Uh... I don't...
Oh, fuck.

581
00:27:49,268 --> 00:27:50,964
I don't have any money.
I'm really sorry.

582
00:27:50,965 --> 00:27:52,314
I can't pay for those.

583
00:27:52,315 --> 00:27:54,794
That's okay. Take it.

584
00:27:54,795 --> 00:27:56,710
I mixed in a little tequila
for you.

585
00:28:05,328 --> 00:28:06,677
That's disgusting.

586
00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:09,201
Thank you.

587
00:28:12,291 --> 00:28:15,075
<i>Mr. Adams,
we really wanna do</i>

588
00:28:15,076 --> 00:28:17,252
<i>everything we can to help Ryan.</i>

589
00:28:19,516 --> 00:28:21,125
But she needs to take
some responsibility

590
00:28:21,126 --> 00:28:23,127
for her behavior.

591
00:28:23,128 --> 00:28:26,218
That girl does not listen
to a thing I say.

592
00:28:27,872 --> 00:28:29,351
To be honest,

593
00:28:29,352 --> 00:28:31,091
I was hoping
you were calling me in here

594
00:28:31,092 --> 00:28:32,790
to give me some advice.

595
00:28:34,531 --> 00:28:36,358
I need help.

596
00:28:36,359 --> 00:28:38,360
It's just that
we're a public school.

597
00:28:38,361 --> 00:28:41,275
We have 2,000 kids
to look after.

598
00:28:41,276 --> 00:28:42,842
We don't have the bandwidth

599
00:28:42,843 --> 00:28:45,497
to micromanage her in ways
that she deserves and needs.

600
00:28:45,498 --> 00:28:47,239
So, what are you saying?

601
00:28:48,240 --> 00:28:49,936
I will give her an extra strike

602
00:28:49,937 --> 00:28:52,374
because of the circumstances.

603
00:28:52,375 --> 00:28:54,027
But if she doesn't tone down
her language

604
00:28:54,028 --> 00:28:55,681
with her teachers

605
00:28:55,682 --> 00:28:57,554
and gets into one more fight,

606
00:28:58,511 --> 00:28:59,860
we'll have to expel her.

607
00:29:21,534 --> 00:29:24,407
Hi, can I get
a double tequila, please?

608
00:29:32,371 --> 00:29:33,372
Allison.

609
00:29:34,329 --> 00:29:36,419
Yo, I know you.

610
00:29:37,550 --> 00:29:38,551
It's Mark.

611
00:29:39,509 --> 00:29:40,683
Yeah, hey.

612
00:29:40,684 --> 00:29:42,554
Yeah.

613
00:29:42,555 --> 00:29:45,209
I haven't seen you
since high school.

614
00:29:45,210 --> 00:29:47,646
This is Diego.
You remember Diego?

615
00:29:47,647 --> 00:29:48,822
Hey.
Hey.

616
00:29:49,867 --> 00:29:51,650
You just having
a little breakfast?

617
00:29:51,651 --> 00:29:54,437
Uh... Um... I just...

618
00:29:56,047 --> 00:29:57,961
I just needed
to get out of the house.

619
00:29:57,962 --> 00:30:00,050
Yeah, I feel that.

620
00:30:00,051 --> 00:30:02,487
I heard what happened to you.
The accident.

621
00:30:02,488 --> 00:30:03,662
Saw it in the <i>Star Ledger.</i> Sorry.

622
00:30:03,663 --> 00:30:05,098
What happened?

623
00:30:05,099 --> 00:30:06,317
She was in that
accident on the turnpike.

624
00:30:06,318 --> 00:30:07,884
Two people died.

625
00:30:07,885 --> 00:30:09,452
Holy shit.

626
00:30:10,496 --> 00:30:11,889
That was you.

627
00:30:12,846 --> 00:30:14,847
Oh, bro.

628
00:30:14,848 --> 00:30:16,806
That would've fucked me up.

629
00:30:16,807 --> 00:30:18,024
It wasn't my fault.

630
00:30:18,025 --> 00:30:20,637
Yeah, I'm sure.
But, like, still...

631
00:30:26,512 --> 00:30:27,512
Damn.

632
00:30:30,908 --> 00:30:33,911
Hey, can I
have another one, please?

633
00:30:35,216 --> 00:30:36,391
You having a tough day?

634
00:30:37,610 --> 00:30:38,959
Just a day.

635
00:30:40,395 --> 00:30:42,658
I just wanna get as far away
from here as possible.

636
00:30:42,659 --> 00:30:44,007
Yo, there's this app,

637
00:30:44,008 --> 00:30:45,399
it tells you the exact opposite

638
00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:47,314
of where you are
on the globe is.

639
00:30:47,315 --> 00:30:49,403
That's where you should go.
I'll look it up for you.

640
00:30:49,404 --> 00:30:51,971
Yo, that's how I feel
every fuckin' day of my life.

641
00:30:51,972 --> 00:30:54,408
I can't seem to escape
this town.

642
00:30:54,409 --> 00:30:56,062
It's like there's
a force field around it

643
00:30:56,063 --> 00:30:57,716
or something.

644
00:30:57,717 --> 00:31:00,414
Like, some people know
how to get outta here.

645
00:31:00,415 --> 00:31:01,938
But the rest of us,

646
00:31:01,939 --> 00:31:03,679
we just keep banging our heads
up against the glass.

647
00:31:03,680 --> 00:31:05,855
It's Perth. That's the city

648
00:31:05,856 --> 00:31:07,726
on the other side of the globe
from here.

649
00:31:07,727 --> 00:31:09,598
You should go to Perth.

650
00:31:09,599 --> 00:31:12,165
I don't have enough money
to get to Perth,

651
00:31:12,166 --> 00:31:13,645
but thank you.

652
00:31:13,646 --> 00:31:15,605
Aren't you engaged
to Nathan Adams?

653
00:31:16,823 --> 00:31:18,781
I was, yeah.

654
00:31:18,782 --> 00:31:21,348
He was an amazing running back
in high school.

655
00:31:21,349 --> 00:31:22,524
He used to run
every fucking play.

656
00:31:22,525 --> 00:31:23,655
You remember him, Mark?
Yeah.

657
00:31:23,656 --> 00:31:24,787
Every fucking play,

658
00:31:24,788 --> 00:31:26,397
they'd come
on the PA system like,

659
00:31:26,398 --> 00:31:30,009
"Nathan Adams,
the ball carrier."

660
00:31:30,010 --> 00:31:31,968
He was the whole fucking team.
You remember him, Mark?

661
00:31:31,969 --> 00:31:33,839
Yeah, I remember him.

662
00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:35,406
Isn't he deaf?

663
00:31:35,407 --> 00:31:38,801
Uh... In one ear. Since birth.

664
00:31:38,802 --> 00:31:40,106
Wow, that's impressive

665
00:31:40,107 --> 00:31:41,717
that he could be, like,
that good, you know?

666
00:31:41,718 --> 00:31:43,370
And half deaf.

667
00:31:43,371 --> 00:31:44,676
So you're, like, single?

668
00:31:44,677 --> 00:31:47,723
Yo.
Shut the fuck up, Diego.

669
00:31:47,724 --> 00:31:50,160
What? You think
she's gonna date you?

670
00:31:50,161 --> 00:31:51,857
Where are you gonna take her?
You live with your mom.

671
00:31:51,858 --> 00:31:54,686
God damn.

672
00:31:54,687 --> 00:31:55,905
Allison, I'm sorry.

673
00:31:55,906 --> 00:31:58,995
My fucking friend
has no tact at all.

674
00:31:58,996 --> 00:32:01,737
We're not used to having

675
00:32:01,738 --> 00:32:04,391
pretty girls such as yourself
come in here.

676
00:32:04,392 --> 00:32:06,132
So, you gotta excuse his

677
00:32:06,133 --> 00:32:07,874
lack of decor.

678
00:32:10,137 --> 00:32:11,356
Decorum.

679
00:32:12,183 --> 00:32:13,271
What?

680
00:32:14,402 --> 00:32:16,665
"Decor" is

681
00:32:16,666 --> 00:32:20,757
the Bud Light lamp
above my head.

682
00:32:21,845 --> 00:32:24,499
"Decorum" is his behavior.

683
00:32:26,110 --> 00:32:28,416
Neither is currently ideal.

684
00:32:33,117 --> 00:32:34,945
Hey, can I ask you
something, like,

685
00:32:36,033 --> 00:32:37,729
between us old friends?

686
00:32:37,730 --> 00:32:39,992
You weren't our friend.
You were popular.

687
00:32:39,993 --> 00:32:42,169
- You were a bitch, actually.
- All right. Diego.

688
00:32:43,910 --> 00:32:46,695
That's old shit.
Right, Allison?

689
00:32:46,696 --> 00:32:49,175
We're past that.
We're grown-ups.

690
00:32:49,176 --> 00:32:52,091
Those of us stuck behind
this force field,

691
00:32:52,092 --> 00:32:55,051
we gotta stick together.
Yeah.

692
00:32:55,052 --> 00:32:59,272
Um, do you know
where I could get some Oxy?

693
00:32:59,273 --> 00:33:00,796
God damn, girl.

694
00:33:00,797 --> 00:33:02,972
No foreplay. No nothing.

695
00:33:02,973 --> 00:33:06,192
No "How are you?
How's your family?"

696
00:33:06,193 --> 00:33:07,630
No, we don't fuck with pills.

697
00:33:08,413 --> 00:33:09,805
I remember in high school

698
00:33:09,806 --> 00:33:11,721
you were the guys
that could, like,

699
00:33:12,635 --> 00:33:13,852
get anything.

700
00:33:13,853 --> 00:33:15,812
And now you're just
buttering us up.

701
00:33:17,422 --> 00:33:19,510
I don't have any money.

702
00:33:19,511 --> 00:33:21,947
How are you gonna pay
for that tequila?

703
00:33:21,948 --> 00:33:24,646
I hadn't got that far yet.

704
00:33:24,647 --> 00:33:26,561
- Is that Rolex real?
- Wait a second.

705
00:33:27,258 --> 00:33:29,259
Wait. Allie Johnson.

706
00:33:29,260 --> 00:33:32,219
Miss lovely Allie Johnson.

707
00:33:33,351 --> 00:33:35,482
You just stroll in here.

708
00:33:35,483 --> 00:33:37,397
You got no money.

709
00:33:37,398 --> 00:33:39,878
And you expect us
to get you Oxy?

710
00:33:39,879 --> 00:33:42,577
For free, and then you want us
to pay for your drink.

711
00:33:44,101 --> 00:33:45,580
Why the fuck would we do that?

712
00:33:47,060 --> 00:33:48,496
Nostalgia?

713
00:33:49,541 --> 00:33:50,976
Old friends?

714
00:33:50,977 --> 00:33:52,586
You thought you were
such hot shit in high school.

715
00:33:52,587 --> 00:33:53,762
You're no fucking different now.

716
00:33:53,763 --> 00:33:55,242
All right. Shut up.

717
00:33:55,634 --> 00:33:57,069
Sorry.

718
00:33:57,070 --> 00:34:00,420
This guy. No decorum.

719
00:34:00,421 --> 00:34:01,596
No, he's right.

720
00:34:02,989 --> 00:34:05,557
I didn't think I was better
than you. I knew it.

721
00:34:06,601 --> 00:34:08,255
I looked down on guys like you.

722
00:34:09,735 --> 00:34:12,650
I thought you were Jersey trash

723
00:34:12,651 --> 00:34:15,262
that would never be able
to make it out of town.

724
00:34:18,613 --> 00:34:20,136
Fucking bitch.

725
00:34:20,137 --> 00:34:21,965
But now you're sitting here

726
00:34:22,705 --> 00:34:24,357
right beside us

727
00:34:24,358 --> 00:34:27,012
and you're looking for a fix.

728
00:34:27,013 --> 00:34:28,579
A favor.

729
00:34:28,580 --> 00:34:30,800
The favor is a fix.

730
00:34:32,366 --> 00:34:34,628
- You're a fucking junkie now.
- No, I'm not.

731
00:34:34,629 --> 00:34:36,718
- You're a fucking junkie.
- No.

732
00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:37,806
Yeah, you are.
Yeah, you are.

733
00:34:37,807 --> 00:34:39,198
Come on.
You're a fuckin' junkie.

734
00:34:39,199 --> 00:34:40,504
No. I'm not like you.

735
00:34:40,505 --> 00:34:41,940
Allie Johnson,

736
00:34:41,941 --> 00:34:44,334
you're so much more
like who you think we are

737
00:34:44,335 --> 00:34:45,858
than we actually are.

738
00:34:47,730 --> 00:34:50,122
Come on.
Say it, say it, say it.

739
00:34:50,123 --> 00:34:51,907
"I'm a fucking junkie."
You might like it.

740
00:34:51,908 --> 00:34:53,735
Fuck you. It's a pill.

741
00:34:53,736 --> 00:34:56,868
It's heroin
in a pretty little dress.

742
00:34:56,869 --> 00:34:58,566
I thought you were the nice one.

743
00:34:59,916 --> 00:35:02,527
Why don't you say it?
Say... Say,

744
00:35:03,397 --> 00:35:05,790
"I'm a fucking junkie,"

745
00:35:05,791 --> 00:35:08,359
and then I'll get you whatever
you want. Anything.

746
00:35:09,882 --> 00:35:13,145
Say it. Just, like,
just come out with it.

747
00:35:13,146 --> 00:35:14,320
I'm currently reliant...

748
00:35:14,321 --> 00:35:17,846
No, that's not
what I fucking said.

749
00:35:17,847 --> 00:35:20,718
You sneaky little bitch.
That's not what I fucking said.

750
00:35:20,719 --> 00:35:21,980
- Is that what I said?
- No.

751
00:35:21,981 --> 00:35:23,809
That is not what I said.

752
00:35:25,680 --> 00:35:28,160
Say you're a fuckin' junkie.
Look at me.

753
00:35:28,161 --> 00:35:29,336
Look at me!

754
00:35:30,337 --> 00:35:33,165
Look me in the eyes, and say,

755
00:35:33,166 --> 00:35:36,386
"I'm a fucking junkie."

756
00:35:36,387 --> 00:35:37,780
Say it!

757
00:35:41,871 --> 00:35:43,568
I'm a fucking junkie.

758
00:35:47,746 --> 00:35:48,791
Good girl.

759
00:35:51,315 --> 00:35:52,751
Beth, I got these tequilas.

760
00:35:54,057 --> 00:35:56,362
I'm sorry for raising my voice.

761
00:35:56,363 --> 00:35:57,538
We're just catching up.

762
00:35:58,148 --> 00:35:59,801
Allie, this is Beth.

763
00:35:59,802 --> 00:36:01,847
She's divine. She's the best.

764
00:36:09,246 --> 00:36:10,595
That's not Oxy.

765
00:36:11,335 --> 00:36:12,553
Same shit.

766
00:36:51,810 --> 00:36:53,170
Thank you.
Ooh, she just walked in.

767
00:36:54,291 --> 00:36:55,769
Oh, my God.
I was so worried about you.

768
00:36:55,770 --> 00:36:56,858
Where were you?

769
00:36:56,859 --> 00:36:59,861
- I'm so sorry.
- Oh, babe, oh.

770
00:36:59,862 --> 00:37:01,775
- I'm sorry.
- Uh-huh. No...

771
00:37:01,776 --> 00:37:03,473
I need help.

772
00:37:03,474 --> 00:37:04,822
I know. I never should have

773
00:37:04,823 --> 00:37:06,302
flushed those pills
down the toilet.

774
00:37:06,303 --> 00:37:08,826
I had no right. I'm so sorry.
I was just so worried.

775
00:37:08,827 --> 00:37:10,045
Can you help me, please, Mama?

776
00:37:10,046 --> 00:37:11,829
Yes, yes, I already did.

777
00:37:11,830 --> 00:37:13,875
Here, I got these from Linda.

778
00:37:13,876 --> 00:37:15,485
She's the woman
who works next to me

779
00:37:15,486 --> 00:37:17,139
in the toy kiosk at the mall.

780
00:37:17,140 --> 00:37:18,618
Her doctor gave them to her

781
00:37:18,619 --> 00:37:20,403
after she got punched
in the face by a shoplifter,

782
00:37:20,404 --> 00:37:21,621
but she said
she didn't need them.

783
00:37:21,622 --> 00:37:22,927
She swore by the neck brace.

784
00:37:22,928 --> 00:37:24,711
But you need 'em, honey.
So here.

785
00:37:24,712 --> 00:37:27,366
That right there is a gift
from Linda, okay?

786
00:37:27,367 --> 00:37:28,933
And we can worry
about kicking it later.

787
00:37:28,934 --> 00:37:30,369
Let's not rush things.

788
00:37:30,370 --> 00:37:32,589
What matters the most
is that you're home safe.

789
00:37:32,590 --> 00:37:35,767
Oh, babe.
Oh, my baby.

790
00:37:40,380 --> 00:37:41,904
Hey, Ry?

791
00:37:43,514 --> 00:37:45,429
Got Chinese food!

792
00:37:46,343 --> 00:37:48,866
I got sweet and sour chicken,

793
00:37:48,867 --> 00:37:51,652
beef with broccoli,
steamed rice.

794
00:37:52,392 --> 00:37:53,392
Where are ya?

795
00:37:54,003 --> 00:37:55,308
Hey, Ry?

796
00:37:56,570 --> 00:37:57,702
Ryan!

797
00:37:59,356 --> 00:38:01,792
What the...
Daniel, get out!

798
00:38:01,793 --> 00:38:03,098
Hey. Hey!

799
00:38:03,099 --> 00:38:04,795
Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay.

800
00:38:04,796 --> 00:38:06,884
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down!
It's not what you think.

801
00:38:06,885 --> 00:38:09,147
I'm pretty sure it is
what I think. How old are you?

802
00:38:09,148 --> 00:38:10,322
Daniel! Get off of him.

803
00:38:10,323 --> 00:38:11,671
Shut up!

804
00:38:11,672 --> 00:38:13,282
I asked you a question, boy.
How old are you?

805
00:38:13,283 --> 00:38:15,632
- I'm 20.
- She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop.

806
00:38:15,633 --> 00:38:17,199
Looks like you picked
the wrong girl.

807
00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:18,417
You're choking him!

808
00:38:18,418 --> 00:38:20,245
She said she was 18 online.

809
00:38:20,246 --> 00:38:22,944
If I ever catch you
near my granddaughter again,

810
00:38:22,945 --> 00:38:24,597
I'm gonna rip
your fucking dick off

811
00:38:24,598 --> 00:38:26,208
and shove it down your throat.
You feel me?

812
00:38:26,209 --> 00:38:27,861
Yes, sir. Yes.

813
00:38:27,862 --> 00:38:29,646
Get the fuck out of here.

814
00:38:29,647 --> 00:38:32,083
Yes, sir.
Uh, I need my clothes.

815
00:38:32,084 --> 00:38:34,781
They're in my house.
They're my clothes now.

816
00:38:34,782 --> 00:38:35,958
Run away!

817
00:38:38,351 --> 00:38:39,482
Daniel!

818
00:38:39,483 --> 00:38:41,527
Get out of my fucking room!

819
00:38:41,528 --> 00:38:42,876
What the fuck?

820
00:38:42,877 --> 00:38:44,878
Hey, look, everybody!

821
00:38:44,879 --> 00:38:47,359
Statutory rapist
from Williamsburg!

822
00:38:47,360 --> 00:38:48,578
I need my keys!

823
00:38:48,579 --> 00:38:51,929
Oh, his keys! His keys!
Look at him!

824
00:38:51,930 --> 00:38:55,280
He's scrambling to his car!
Statutory rapist!

825
00:38:55,281 --> 00:38:56,499
Hey, Belinda,

826
00:38:56,500 --> 00:38:59,023
I found this fool in bed
with my Ryan.

827
00:38:59,024 --> 00:39:00,894
She said...
She said she was 18 online.

828
00:39:00,895 --> 00:39:02,331
You're a fuckboy.

829
00:39:02,332 --> 00:39:04,594
He's a fuckboy! That's what
the kids call them!

830
00:39:04,595 --> 00:39:07,162
Get out of
our neighborhood, fuckboy!

831
00:39:07,163 --> 00:39:08,728
Okay. Okay!

832
00:39:08,729 --> 00:39:09,816
Get out of here, fuckboy!

833
00:39:09,817 --> 00:39:10,904
All right! All right!

834
00:39:10,905 --> 00:39:12,167
Right fucking now!

835
00:39:12,168 --> 00:39:14,256
Wet, flaccid fuckboy!
Okay, okay!

836
00:39:14,257 --> 00:39:15,345
Okay!

837
00:39:18,565 --> 00:39:20,610
I cannot believe
you just did that!

838
00:39:20,611 --> 00:39:21,699
Give me your phone.

839
00:39:23,048 --> 00:39:24,789
Give me the fucking phone
right now!

840
00:39:29,837 --> 00:39:31,316
You're grounded.

841
00:39:31,317 --> 00:39:34,580
You hear me?
You're grounded until...

842
00:39:34,581 --> 00:39:37,714
Shit, I can't think of
when you won't be grounded.

843
00:39:37,715 --> 00:39:39,542
You can't just lock me up, Daniel.

844
00:39:39,543 --> 00:39:42,501
For the last fucking time, Ryan,

845
00:39:42,502 --> 00:39:44,548
you call me "Grandpa."

846
00:39:47,290 --> 00:39:51,076
I hate you!
I fucking hate you!

847
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:10,590
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

848
00:41:12,853 --> 00:41:16,335
<i>♪ I'll be back
in a week or two ♪</i>

849
00:41:18,163 --> 00:41:20,425
<i>♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪</i>

850
00:41:20,426 --> 00:41:23,168
<i>♪ 'Cause I won't
pick up for you ♪</i>

851
00:41:26,432 --> 00:41:29,087
<i>♪ I've got some things
I neeed to do ♪</i>

852
00:41:44,363 --> 00:41:48,585
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

853
00:41:50,587 --> 00:41:53,546
<i>♪ The only place
I feel at peace ♪</i>

854
00:41:56,158 --> 00:41:58,637
<i>♪ And I knew
you'd come after me ♪</i>

855
00:41:58,638 --> 00:41:59,878
<i>♪ So I threw away
your keys... ♪</i>

856
00:42:03,077 --> 00:42:09,561
<i>♪ But I know you'd never go
when I say leave ♪</i>

857
00:42:09,562 --> 00:42:14,698
<i>♪ I'm headed to the mountains
don't wait up for me ♪</i>

858
00:42:24,490 --> 00:42:26,188
Allison, don't go.

859
00:42:27,928 --> 00:42:31,235
- This was a mistake.
- No. No, it isn't.

860
00:42:31,236 --> 00:42:35,239
Trust me, I know
how hard it is to get here.

861
00:42:35,240 --> 00:42:38,199
It's damn near impossible,
and you did it.

862
00:42:38,200 --> 00:42:40,331
Don't run away now
because of me.

863
00:42:40,332 --> 00:42:41,593
There are thousands of meetings.

864
00:42:41,594 --> 00:42:43,204
- I'll find another one.
- Well, yeah,

865
00:42:43,205 --> 00:42:44,944
but this one
has the best snacks.

866
00:42:44,945 --> 00:42:46,598
- I wanna go.
- No.

867
00:42:46,599 --> 00:42:49,122
No, no. You've made it
this far, and I wouldn't.

868
00:42:49,123 --> 00:42:51,299
I don't wanna be here.

869
00:42:51,300 --> 00:42:52,865
Nobody does in the beginning.

870
00:42:52,866 --> 00:42:55,303
I don't wanna be anywhere.

871
00:42:55,304 --> 00:42:57,958
Then you are definitely
in the right spot.

872
00:42:59,046 --> 00:43:00,396
I thought you were sober.

873
00:43:01,179 --> 00:43:02,571
Ten years.

874
00:43:02,572 --> 00:43:06,314
I kinda slacked off
coming to regular meetings,

875
00:43:06,315 --> 00:43:08,055
and then lately, I...

876
00:43:09,100 --> 00:43:11,102
I realized I need the support.

877
00:43:12,103 --> 00:43:13,321
Because of what happened?

878
00:43:13,322 --> 00:43:16,454
No, no, no! No, it's...

879
00:43:16,455 --> 00:43:18,021
Is the accident the reason
why you came back?

880
00:43:18,022 --> 00:43:19,457
No, I just feel that...

881
00:43:19,458 --> 00:43:21,198
Daniel, am I the reason
why you're back here?

882
00:43:21,199 --> 00:43:22,331
Yes!

883
00:43:26,291 --> 00:43:27,640
Yes, of course.

884
00:43:29,686 --> 00:43:31,209
What the hell
do you want me to say?

885
00:43:32,079 --> 00:43:33,993
- I'm sorry.
- No.

886
00:43:33,994 --> 00:43:35,908
Look.

887
00:43:35,909 --> 00:43:40,348
I got ten years,
and lately, I've been feeling

888
00:43:40,349 --> 00:43:43,874
like I really,
really want a drink.

889
00:43:45,702 --> 00:43:47,051
This works.

890
00:43:49,314 --> 00:43:50,401
Thank you.

891
00:43:50,402 --> 00:43:53,448
Um, I'm gonna find
somewhere else.

892
00:43:53,449 --> 00:43:55,232
There are thousands
of these meetings.

893
00:43:55,233 --> 00:43:58,497
Yeah, but somehow you found
your way to this one.

894
00:44:00,107 --> 00:44:01,500
Now isn't that something?

895
00:44:04,416 --> 00:44:06,026
All right, come on.

896
00:44:10,640 --> 00:44:11,771
Come on.

897
00:44:13,860 --> 00:44:14,905
Okay.

898
00:44:16,472 --> 00:44:18,473
<i>Everybody, welcome.</i>

899
00:44:18,474 --> 00:44:19,996
This is the regular meeting

900
00:44:19,997 --> 00:44:22,694
of the Live and Let Live group
of Alcoholics Anonymous.

901
00:44:22,695 --> 00:44:24,000
My name is Simone,

902
00:44:24,001 --> 00:44:26,785
and I'm an alcoholic,
and your secretary.

903
00:44:26,786 --> 00:44:29,702
Let us open the meeting
with the Serenity Prayer.

904
00:44:31,878 --> 00:44:33,009
God...

905
00:44:33,010 --> 00:44:34,184
grant me the serenity

906
00:44:34,185 --> 00:44:36,708
to accept the things
I cannot change,

907
00:44:36,709 --> 00:44:39,363
the courage
to change the things I can,

908
00:44:39,364 --> 00:44:42,411
and the wisdom
to know the difference.

909
00:44:48,199 --> 00:44:51,854
Hey, you got up awfully early
this morning.

910
00:44:51,855 --> 00:44:53,856
I went to an NA meeting.

911
00:44:53,857 --> 00:44:56,598
What? You did?
Mmmhmm. Mmm-hmm.

912
00:44:56,599 --> 00:45:00,341
Oh, Allie.
I'm so happy to hear that.

913
00:45:00,342 --> 00:45:02,691
Well, I'm not saying
I'm gonna go again.

914
00:45:02,692 --> 00:45:04,997
Well, you gotta start somewhere,

915
00:45:04,998 --> 00:45:06,564
and sounds like you did.

916
00:45:06,565 --> 00:45:08,131
- Mm-hmm.
- So that's good.

917
00:45:08,132 --> 00:45:12,744
I don't know if I'll be able
to just quit, though, Mom.

918
00:45:12,745 --> 00:45:14,833
I think I need real help,

919
00:45:14,834 --> 00:45:17,445
like an in-patient program
or something.

920
00:45:17,446 --> 00:45:19,316
Well, honey,
neither of us has insurance,

921
00:45:19,317 --> 00:45:22,014
so how the hell are we
supposed to pay for that?

922
00:45:22,015 --> 00:45:23,581
I mean, you gotta get a job.

923
00:45:23,582 --> 00:45:26,367
Mom, who's gonna hire me
like this?

924
00:45:26,368 --> 00:45:28,456
- Come on.
- Like, no...

925
00:45:28,457 --> 00:45:29,631
What do you mean?

926
00:45:29,632 --> 00:45:31,328
You're a beautiful
26-year-old woman.

927
00:45:31,329 --> 00:45:34,026
- You're smart, you're funny...
- No, I'm not. No, I'm not.

928
00:45:34,027 --> 00:45:35,767
- Yes, you are.
- No, I'm not.

929
00:45:35,768 --> 00:45:37,508
That's the old me
you're describing.

930
00:45:37,509 --> 00:45:38,596
You're still you.

931
00:45:38,597 --> 00:45:41,556
No, I'm not! I'm...

932
00:45:41,557 --> 00:45:43,863
I'm something else.

933
00:45:45,648 --> 00:45:46,823
I'm something...

934
00:45:47,867 --> 00:45:49,391
Ugh. Um...

935
00:45:54,831 --> 00:45:56,876
I was thinking, um...

936
00:46:00,445 --> 00:46:04,100
You know how Dad was probably
gonna get me a wedding gift,

937
00:46:04,101 --> 00:46:06,407
or, well, at least
he was gonna come, right?

938
00:46:06,408 --> 00:46:08,278
Maybe instead of whatever it was

939
00:46:08,279 --> 00:46:10,107
that he was gonna give me,

940
00:46:11,630 --> 00:46:15,981
maybe he could help pay
for me to get help.

941
00:46:15,982 --> 00:46:18,420
And so, I was wondering if you

942
00:46:19,116 --> 00:46:20,725
would call him for me.

943
00:46:20,726 --> 00:46:24,033
Allie, I will never speak
to that man as long as I live.

944
00:46:24,034 --> 00:46:25,513
Do you know what he did?

945
00:46:25,514 --> 00:46:28,167
He packed his car up,
and he left us with nothing.

946
00:46:28,168 --> 00:46:30,169
But it is what it is, okay?

947
00:46:30,170 --> 00:46:33,609
So, you gotta pull yourself up
by your bootstraps, now.

948
00:46:35,219 --> 00:46:36,437
Thanks, Mom.

949
00:46:36,438 --> 00:46:38,221
Yeah, I'm sorry
I can't get over this

950
00:46:38,222 --> 00:46:40,049
as fast as you want me to.

951
00:46:40,050 --> 00:46:41,660
- Allie...
- Nah.

952
00:46:52,802 --> 00:46:54,456
Well, look who it is.

953
00:46:55,195 --> 00:46:57,501
Hi, Dad.

954
00:46:57,502 --> 00:47:00,678
What brings you to the less
glamorous side of the river?

955
00:47:00,679 --> 00:47:03,072
Ryan asked me to come see her.

956
00:47:03,073 --> 00:47:05,727
Turns out, she really
wanted me to talk to you.

957
00:47:05,728 --> 00:47:08,077
- Oh?
- She's worried about you.

958
00:47:08,078 --> 00:47:09,775
She's worried about me?

959
00:47:10,776 --> 00:47:12,647
That girl's crazy.

960
00:47:12,648 --> 00:47:15,563
She says she thinks
you need a friend.

961
00:47:15,564 --> 00:47:17,347
Hell, I don't need a friend.

962
00:47:17,348 --> 00:47:19,524
I need a dog crate
the size of a teenager.

963
00:47:22,962 --> 00:47:25,094
Look, Nathan,
I understand your need

964
00:47:25,095 --> 00:47:27,053
to move on after the breakup...

965
00:47:29,491 --> 00:47:30,534
but, hell, I never imagined

966
00:47:30,535 --> 00:47:33,450
I'd be doing this all by myself.

967
00:47:33,451 --> 00:47:35,104
You raised two kids.

968
00:47:35,105 --> 00:47:36,367
I had your mother.

969
00:47:38,195 --> 00:47:40,806
And you and your sister were
much better behaved than Ry.

970
00:47:43,548 --> 00:47:45,984
What? Come on.
Speak your mind, son.

971
00:47:45,985 --> 00:47:48,901
We were good because
we were terrified of you.

972
00:47:50,599 --> 00:47:52,382
So, I'm not surprised

973
00:47:52,383 --> 00:47:53,818
you don't have any tools
in your arsenal

974
00:47:53,819 --> 00:47:56,038
since you lost
the only one that you had.

975
00:47:56,039 --> 00:47:57,519
Fear.

976
00:48:00,522 --> 00:48:06,092
I have apologized 100 times
to you for the way I was.

977
00:48:08,617 --> 00:48:12,141
Your sister found a way
to give me another chance.

978
00:48:12,142 --> 00:48:13,795
How come you can't?

979
00:48:13,796 --> 00:48:17,276
'Cause Molly never really got
the brunt of it, did she?

980
00:48:17,277 --> 00:48:20,323
I guarantee you that if
she was standing here now,

981
00:48:20,324 --> 00:48:22,934
she would be begging you
to drop this shit,

982
00:48:22,935 --> 00:48:24,501
and help me raise her child.

983
00:48:24,502 --> 00:48:26,025
Well, she isn't.

984
00:48:27,940 --> 00:48:29,420
No, she's not.

985
00:48:33,467 --> 00:48:35,208
I have to catch the train.

986
00:48:36,383 --> 00:48:37,820
I saw Allison.

987
00:48:42,302 --> 00:48:43,433
Where?

988
00:48:43,434 --> 00:48:45,523
Not supposed to say.

989
00:48:46,611 --> 00:48:48,177
AA?

990
00:48:48,178 --> 00:48:49,395
Not supposed to say.

991
00:48:49,396 --> 00:48:50,745
What the hell
does she need AA for?

992
00:48:50,746 --> 00:48:52,530
- I'm not supposed to...
- To say.

993
00:48:55,011 --> 00:48:56,012
I got it.

994
00:48:57,753 --> 00:49:00,102
Of all the meetings,
she ends up at yours?

995
00:49:00,103 --> 00:49:02,626
She saw me,
she tried to run away,

996
00:49:02,627 --> 00:49:04,846
but I pulled her back.

997
00:49:04,847 --> 00:49:06,065
Why?

998
00:49:07,240 --> 00:49:08,459
She's suffering, Nathan.

999
00:49:10,026 --> 00:49:11,070
Broken.

1000
00:49:11,941 --> 00:49:13,028
Lost.

1001
00:49:13,029 --> 00:49:15,422
You're the one who blamed her!

1002
00:49:16,554 --> 00:49:17,946
I stood by her!

1003
00:49:17,947 --> 00:49:21,210
Yeah, until she left your ass.

1004
00:49:21,211 --> 00:49:24,692
Sorry. Sorry, that came out
harsher than I meant.

1005
00:49:24,693 --> 00:49:26,737
I have to catch the train.

1006
00:49:26,738 --> 00:49:28,087
Please, Nathan.

1007
00:49:28,914 --> 00:49:31,089
I need help.

1008
00:49:31,090 --> 00:49:33,876
Ryan asked me to come by
and say "hi" to you.

1009
00:49:34,920 --> 00:49:36,182
And I did.

1010
00:49:37,531 --> 00:49:38,532
Okay.

1011
00:49:41,231 --> 00:49:42,319
Hi.

1012
00:50:01,468 --> 00:50:04,080
<i>- Best first date ever.
- I heard that.</i>

1013
00:50:18,094 --> 00:50:20,966
<i>I used to drink
whiskey until I blacked out.</i>

1014
00:50:22,402 --> 00:50:24,491
Wake up the next morning
to find out

1015
00:50:25,667 --> 00:50:27,930
what I had done, who I had been.

1016
00:50:33,849 --> 00:50:35,633
My father was a drunk.

1017
00:50:38,549 --> 00:50:42,684
He beat me
right up to the day he died.

1018
00:50:45,208 --> 00:50:48,690
And I vowed I would never
lay a hand on my children.

1019
00:50:50,996 --> 00:50:52,345
And I didn't...

1020
00:50:54,391 --> 00:50:55,914
while I was sober.

1021
00:50:58,830 --> 00:51:00,440
But in the blackness...

1022
00:51:04,227 --> 00:51:07,970
I always denied because
I really couldn't remember.

1023
00:51:09,711 --> 00:51:11,538
Sometimes there'd be a bruise.

1024
00:51:13,627 --> 00:51:17,021
"Oh, you must have fallen down.

1025
00:51:17,022 --> 00:51:19,111
"I'm your daddy.
I would never hurt you."

1026
00:51:20,678 --> 00:51:23,202
August 11th, '99...

1027
00:51:26,510 --> 00:51:30,949
I woke up on my front porch to
the sound of church bells...

1028
00:51:33,865 --> 00:51:35,562
and an ice cream truck.

1029
00:51:36,607 --> 00:51:38,695
So, I knew it was Sunday.

1030
00:51:38,696 --> 00:51:42,874
First thing I saw was my captain

1031
00:51:44,136 --> 00:51:46,659
standing over me,

1032
00:51:46,660 --> 00:51:49,272
poking me in the ribs
with his nightstick.

1033
00:51:52,579 --> 00:51:53,929
An ambulance.

1034
00:51:55,757 --> 00:51:59,499
My son, Nathan,
sitting in the back,

1035
00:52:00,892 --> 00:52:02,328
bleeding from the head.

1036
00:52:03,765 --> 00:52:06,376
Medics had bought him
a Popsicle.

1037
00:52:08,682 --> 00:52:10,554
Turns out that...

1038
00:52:12,556 --> 00:52:14,384
in the blackness...

1039
00:52:17,953 --> 00:52:21,085
I had beat him so bad

1040
00:52:21,086 --> 00:52:24,306
that he lost the hearing
in his right ear.

1041
00:52:24,307 --> 00:52:25,395
Forever.

1042
00:52:26,831 --> 00:52:30,138
And to this day,
every time I see him,

1043
00:52:30,139 --> 00:52:33,664
I beg for his forgiveness.

1044
00:52:35,100 --> 00:52:37,146
It's just a little dance we do.

1045
00:52:38,451 --> 00:52:40,062
A mere formality.

1046
00:52:42,064 --> 00:52:43,674
Because we both know...

1047
00:52:46,503 --> 00:52:49,027
that there are some things
that are just

1048
00:52:50,681 --> 00:52:52,639
impossible to forgive.

1049
00:52:56,861 --> 00:53:01,866
I do believe
even God knows that.

1050
00:53:09,221 --> 00:53:11,658
When I was a cop,
I used to eat here every day.

1051
00:53:12,616 --> 00:53:14,313
Free coffee refills.

1052
00:53:17,142 --> 00:53:18,143
You hungry?

1053
00:53:19,841 --> 00:53:20,842
No.

1054
00:53:21,581 --> 00:53:22,582
Hmm.

1055
00:53:25,063 --> 00:53:27,283
Funny, the things
we stop caring about.

1056
00:53:29,372 --> 00:53:31,069
I used to want to travel.

1057
00:53:32,723 --> 00:53:34,942
I would leaf through
<i>National Geographic</i>

1058
00:53:34,943 --> 00:53:36,944
and dog-ear
all of the exotic places

1059
00:53:36,945 --> 00:53:39,251
I would visit once I retired.

1060
00:53:42,037 --> 00:53:44,038
Never do that now.

1061
00:53:44,039 --> 00:53:46,780
- You still could.
- No, no. I couldn't.

1062
00:53:51,873 --> 00:53:57,530
I wasn't drunk,
or on anything, by the way.

1063
00:53:58,314 --> 00:53:59,315
What?

1064
00:54:00,577 --> 00:54:03,014
When I saw you the other day
at the meeting,

1065
00:54:04,711 --> 00:54:08,845
I instantly got worried
that you may have thought

1066
00:54:08,846 --> 00:54:12,022
that I was drinking or on drugs

1067
00:54:12,023 --> 00:54:13,719
on the day of the accident,
and I wasn't.

1068
00:54:13,720 --> 00:54:16,158
I was sober.
It wasn't my fault.

1069
00:54:17,899 --> 00:54:20,161
I have every report ever written

1070
00:54:20,162 --> 00:54:21,946
committed to memory.

1071
00:54:22,599 --> 00:54:23,687
Right.

1072
00:54:25,994 --> 00:54:27,255
So, you know that it was

1073
00:54:27,256 --> 00:54:28,996
the backhoe guy's fault, Alvarez.

1074
00:54:28,997 --> 00:54:30,693
I don't wanna get
into that all right now.

1075
00:54:30,694 --> 00:54:32,217
Okay, yeah, you're right.

1076
00:54:37,179 --> 00:54:39,877
Nathan said that he was deaf
since birth.

1077
00:54:41,226 --> 00:54:42,575
He never told you?

1078
00:54:43,968 --> 00:54:46,144
Maybe he wanted me to like you.

1079
00:54:47,711 --> 00:54:49,365
I doubt that.

1080
00:54:53,021 --> 00:54:57,111
I thought that raising Ryan
would offer me the chance

1081
00:54:57,112 --> 00:54:59,766
to be a better father
than I ever was.

1082
00:55:00,637 --> 00:55:02,377
Shit.

1083
00:55:02,378 --> 00:55:05,336
I'm in way over my head.

1084
00:55:05,337 --> 00:55:08,600
I got one of those audiobooks
from the library.

1085
00:55:08,601 --> 00:55:09,862
<i>How to Talk to a Teen.</i>

1086
00:55:09,863 --> 00:55:11,821
Oh, yeah?

1087
00:55:11,822 --> 00:55:13,475
How's that working out?

1088
00:55:13,476 --> 00:55:16,086
Well, it's from the '80s...

1089
00:55:16,087 --> 00:55:17,435
It's on a cassette.

1090
00:55:17,436 --> 00:55:18,523
Right.

1091
00:55:18,524 --> 00:55:20,135
Its advice is,

1092
00:55:21,484 --> 00:55:22,964
"Chaperone a dance."

1093
00:55:26,706 --> 00:55:28,969
"Chaperone a dance."

1094
00:55:28,970 --> 00:55:30,883
I just caught her having sex

1095
00:55:30,884 --> 00:55:33,148
with a boy
who looked like a man.

1096
00:55:35,541 --> 00:55:37,413
A dance would be delightful.

1097
00:55:38,805 --> 00:55:40,764
Can I give you some advice

1098
00:55:41,765 --> 00:55:43,767
from a former teenage girl?

1099
00:55:45,551 --> 00:55:47,031
She's gonna have sex.

1100
00:55:48,467 --> 00:55:51,427
And nothing you say
is gonna change that.

1101
00:55:53,907 --> 00:55:56,083
Just make sure
she's on birth control.

1102
00:55:56,084 --> 00:55:57,301
- Birth control?
- Yeah.

1103
00:55:57,302 --> 00:55:59,738
She's 16!

1104
00:55:59,739 --> 00:56:01,959
No, we'll be going
the abstinence route.

1105
00:56:03,047 --> 00:56:04,352
No offense, Daniel,

1106
00:56:04,353 --> 00:56:07,138
but, uh, there's a knot
in your logic.

1107
00:56:08,618 --> 00:56:10,010
You're trying to solve a problem

1108
00:56:10,011 --> 00:56:11,838
by looking
in the other direction.

1109
00:56:15,277 --> 00:56:17,234
I could talk to her
if you want me to.

1110
00:56:17,235 --> 00:56:19,193
Oh, well, no thanks.

1111
00:56:19,194 --> 00:56:20,803
- It's okay. Of course.
- That's not appropriate.

1112
00:56:20,804 --> 00:56:22,239
I don't even know
why I just said that.

1113
00:56:22,240 --> 00:56:23,501
- I'm sorry.
- No, it's okay.

1114
00:56:23,502 --> 00:56:25,025
It's just that
I don't think that it's...

1115
00:56:25,026 --> 00:56:26,592
I just felt the need,

1116
00:56:28,072 --> 00:56:31,032
um, the instinct
to help in some way.

1117
00:56:31,989 --> 00:56:33,512
It's the least I could do.

1118
00:56:41,085 --> 00:56:43,000
I don't know how to do this.

1119
00:56:44,001 --> 00:56:45,001
What?

1120
00:56:45,481 --> 00:56:47,004
Start all over.

1121
00:56:48,788 --> 00:56:50,138
How do you do it?

1122
00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:52,792
Takes work.

1123
00:56:55,795 --> 00:56:58,755
- Can I tell you a secret?
- Sure.

1124
00:57:03,760 --> 00:57:05,979
I'm not sure I have the will.

1125
00:57:28,132 --> 00:57:30,656
What does <i>"amor fati"</i> mean?

1126
00:57:34,573 --> 00:57:36,184
Certain things are private.

1127
00:57:37,359 --> 00:57:39,187
Do you think I'm fucked up?

1128
00:57:40,623 --> 00:57:42,668
Are you high right now?

1129
00:57:43,974 --> 00:57:45,106
No.

1130
00:57:46,498 --> 00:57:48,499
I was a cop for 40 years.

1131
00:57:48,500 --> 00:57:50,198
I was an addict for 50.

1132
00:57:51,721 --> 00:57:53,810
So, I'm gonna ask you again.

1133
00:57:55,028 --> 00:57:56,552
Are you high right now?

1134
00:57:57,553 --> 00:57:58,771
Well, I...

1135
00:58:00,599 --> 00:58:02,252
I broke a pill in half.

1136
00:58:02,253 --> 00:58:03,689
So, half.

1137
00:58:05,517 --> 00:58:07,954
Yes, I think
you're fucked up, Allison.

1138
00:58:10,870 --> 00:58:12,176
Not half.

1139
00:58:13,046 --> 00:58:14,917
All fucked up.

1140
00:58:14,918 --> 00:58:16,833
Do you think
I'll ever pull out of this?

1141
00:58:18,661 --> 00:58:23,970
I mean, like, maybe one day
I might be the kind of person

1142
00:58:25,407 --> 00:58:26,885
that people want
their granddaughter

1143
00:58:26,886 --> 00:58:28,931
to hang out with?

1144
00:58:28,932 --> 00:58:30,629
I have no idea.

1145
00:58:32,414 --> 00:58:33,676
Me neither.

1146
00:58:48,995 --> 00:58:51,997
Can I have
my phone back, please?

1147
00:58:51,998 --> 00:58:54,827
I'm running out of ideas
on how to handle you, Ryan.

1148
00:58:55,915 --> 00:58:57,481
Grandpa,
everybody at my age has sex.

1149
00:58:57,482 --> 00:58:59,353
It's, like, not a big deal.

1150
00:58:59,354 --> 00:59:00,745
I know it was different
when you were younger,

1151
00:59:00,746 --> 00:59:03,575
but that's just, like,
not how it is anymore.

1152
00:59:07,536 --> 00:59:09,886
Well, let me ask you something.

1153
00:59:16,109 --> 00:59:17,154
Are you...

1154
00:59:19,678 --> 00:59:21,724
Are you using

1155
00:59:22,551 --> 00:59:24,856
any protection?

1156
00:59:24,857 --> 00:59:26,467
Oh, my God!

1157
00:59:26,468 --> 00:59:29,165
I am so not gonna talk about
this with my grandfather.

1158
00:59:29,166 --> 00:59:31,168
How the hell
do you think I feel?

1159
00:59:35,216 --> 00:59:37,739
- I know you're upset.
- I'm not upset.

1160
00:59:37,740 --> 00:59:39,002
Maybe you should go back

1161
00:59:39,872 --> 00:59:41,395
and see that therapist again.

1162
00:59:41,396 --> 00:59:42,701
No. I just

1163
00:59:43,833 --> 00:59:46,487
want my phone back.

1164
00:59:46,488 --> 00:59:49,707
I don't have any friends
at Columbia

1165
00:59:49,708 --> 00:59:52,014
and I want to

1166
00:59:52,015 --> 00:59:54,670
hang onto the few I still have
on Long Beach Island.

1167
00:59:56,019 --> 00:59:57,715
How come you can't make friends?

1168
00:59:57,716 --> 00:59:59,370
I've been through a lot
this year.

1169
00:59:59,892 --> 01:00:01,154
Hmm.

1170
01:00:02,112 --> 01:00:04,593
And nobody really understands.

1171
01:00:05,811 --> 01:00:08,249
They try. Some, but...

1172
01:00:09,206 --> 01:00:10,815
I mean, it's fake.

1173
01:00:10,816 --> 01:00:12,644
Don't you think
most people are so fake?

1174
01:00:14,080 --> 01:00:16,692
I would probably say
"duplicitous."

1175
01:00:17,693 --> 01:00:18,781
What does that mean?

1176
01:00:19,608 --> 01:00:21,131
Fake.

1177
01:00:24,221 --> 01:00:25,570
I'm on your side.

1178
01:00:27,529 --> 01:00:28,573
I know.

1179
01:00:29,226 --> 01:00:30,879
Tell you what.

1180
01:00:30,880 --> 01:00:33,751
You can have your phone back

1181
01:00:33,752 --> 01:00:37,625
if you promise to start taking
birth control pills.

1182
01:00:37,626 --> 01:00:39,627
Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel!

1183
01:00:39,628 --> 01:00:40,759
Grandpa!

1184
01:00:43,588 --> 01:00:44,676
Grandpa.

1185
01:00:46,112 --> 01:00:48,985
Is it a deal?
I'll make the appointment.

1186
01:00:50,639 --> 01:00:52,901
Fine. Fine.

1187
01:00:52,902 --> 01:00:54,381
I just

1188
01:00:54,382 --> 01:00:57,428
never want to talk to you
about sex ever again.

1189
01:00:58,647 --> 01:01:00,779
Oh, really?

1190
01:01:01,650 --> 01:01:03,434
'Cause I just love this shit.

1191
01:01:10,354 --> 01:01:12,181
Have you ever been
on campus before?

1192
01:01:12,182 --> 01:01:13,878
Not since I was a kid.

1193
01:01:13,879 --> 01:01:15,532
I used to do swim meets here.

1194
01:01:15,533 --> 01:01:16,838
- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.

1195
01:01:16,839 --> 01:01:18,840
You were a swimmer?
Uh, yeah.

1196
01:01:18,841 --> 01:01:21,364
Well, I was 12, but yeah,
I was pretty good.

1197
01:01:21,365 --> 01:01:23,497
I still have all the trophies
and the ribbons.

1198
01:01:23,498 --> 01:01:25,455
- That's cool.
- Mmm.

1199
01:01:25,456 --> 01:01:28,329
- What stroke?
- Mostly freestyle.

1200
01:01:29,721 --> 01:01:30,983
Why'd you stop?

1201
01:01:31,854 --> 01:01:35,073
Um, my dad left.

1202
01:01:35,074 --> 01:01:37,902
Yeah, it was kinda the thing
that we used to do together.

1203
01:01:37,903 --> 01:01:40,341
He would cheer so loud
I could hear him underwater.

1204
01:01:41,690 --> 01:01:43,692
Seemed kind of pointless
to do it without him.

1205
01:01:45,041 --> 01:01:47,435
- Where'd he go?
- Ohio.

1206
01:01:48,784 --> 01:01:50,350
Started a whole new family
in Ohio.

1207
01:01:50,351 --> 01:01:51,916
Wow.

1208
01:01:51,917 --> 01:01:54,658
He has 10-year-old twins. Yeah.

1209
01:01:54,659 --> 01:01:56,747
I don't know
if they swim or not, though.

1210
01:01:56,748 --> 01:01:59,315
Oh, man. I am always
just amazed at people

1211
01:01:59,316 --> 01:02:01,883
who can, like, up and leave
their kids like that.

1212
01:02:01,884 --> 01:02:03,014
Mmm.

1213
01:02:03,015 --> 01:02:04,364
I just don't know how you could,

1214
01:02:04,365 --> 01:02:07,454
like, fucking sleep at night.

1215
01:02:07,455 --> 01:02:11,545
For so long, I thought
that I'd done something wrong.

1216
01:02:11,546 --> 01:02:14,984
Like, it was my fault,
or I'd let him down.

1217
01:02:16,159 --> 01:02:19,030
And then I just realized,

1218
01:02:19,031 --> 01:02:22,338
I don't know, maybe
some people just aren't good.

1219
01:02:22,339 --> 01:02:23,471
Hmm.

1220
01:02:24,994 --> 01:02:27,299
It's kinda like he, like,
restarted a level

1221
01:02:27,300 --> 01:02:29,737
in a video game
with a fresh life.

1222
01:02:29,738 --> 01:02:32,261
That's exactly what he did!

1223
01:02:32,262 --> 01:02:36,265
He packed up the car,
and left his Rolex

1224
01:02:36,266 --> 01:02:38,920
in the attic of my dollhouse,

1225
01:02:38,921 --> 01:02:40,488
and he drove away.

1226
01:02:44,317 --> 01:02:45,361
Hey, let's sit
for a second, okay?

1227
01:02:45,362 --> 01:02:47,146
Yeah, yeah.

1228
01:02:48,800 --> 01:02:52,412
Uh... So, I'll sponsor you.

1229
01:02:52,413 --> 01:02:55,545
- Okay.
- But, um,

1230
01:02:55,546 --> 01:02:57,461
you gotta start
taking this shit seriously.

1231
01:02:58,941 --> 01:03:01,377
You can't keep coming
to meetings high.

1232
01:03:01,378 --> 01:03:02,814
What?

1233
01:03:05,643 --> 01:03:07,384
How did you know?

1234
01:03:08,733 --> 01:03:11,518
Uh, because I was you.

1235
01:03:11,519 --> 01:03:14,435
And I've helped
dozens of women who were you.

1236
01:03:15,871 --> 01:03:19,657
And some beat it,
and some are dead.

1237
01:03:22,486 --> 01:03:23,748
But, you know,

1238
01:03:24,923 --> 01:03:27,359
if you want my time,
you gotta commit.

1239
01:03:27,360 --> 01:03:28,665
Because I have a toddler
so I just

1240
01:03:28,666 --> 01:03:29,971
- don't have time for bullshit.
- Yeah.

1241
01:03:29,972 --> 01:03:33,714
No, I do. I... I...
I really wanna beat it.

1242
01:03:33,715 --> 01:03:36,499
Then I want you to do
90 meetings in 90 days.

1243
01:03:36,500 --> 01:03:38,066
- Wow.
- Yeah.

1244
01:03:38,067 --> 01:03:40,896
And, um, we're gonna
get you started on step one.

1245
01:03:41,984 --> 01:03:42,984
Okay.

1246
01:03:44,203 --> 01:03:45,334
Okay.

1247
01:03:45,335 --> 01:03:49,120
Also, enough hiding out, man.

1248
01:03:49,121 --> 01:03:50,521
It's time you shared
with the group.

1249
01:03:52,473 --> 01:03:54,475
- All right.
- Uh...

1250
01:03:57,086 --> 01:04:03,135
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm addicted to, uh,

1251
01:04:04,528 --> 01:04:06,050
pills.

1252
01:04:06,051 --> 01:04:08,226
Hi, Allison.

1253
01:04:08,227 --> 01:04:09,359
Uh...

1254
01:04:10,839 --> 01:04:13,014
Sorry. Can I start again?

1255
01:04:13,015 --> 01:04:15,233
I've never done this before,
and I'm nervous.

1256
01:04:15,234 --> 01:04:16,366
You got it.

1257
01:04:21,023 --> 01:04:26,070
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm an addict.

1258
01:04:26,071 --> 01:04:27,943
Hi, Allison.

1259
01:04:31,120 --> 01:04:32,295
I...

1260
01:04:34,558 --> 01:04:35,558
Um...

1261
01:04:38,693 --> 01:04:40,303
I was the driver

1262
01:04:41,739 --> 01:04:43,740
of a car

1263
01:04:43,741 --> 01:04:45,569
that was in
a really bad accident.

1264
01:04:48,833 --> 01:04:50,226
Two people died.

1265
01:04:53,838 --> 01:04:55,144
The woman was...

1266
01:04:58,887 --> 01:05:02,325
The woman was about to be
my sister-in-law.

1267
01:05:06,285 --> 01:05:08,897
We were on our way to try on
my wedding dresses.

1268
01:05:13,249 --> 01:05:14,380
And then we weren't.

1269
01:05:15,860 --> 01:05:17,122
It wasn't my fault.

1270
01:05:18,776 --> 01:05:22,258
I wasn't on drugs or booze,
or drunk, or anything.

1271
01:05:24,347 --> 01:05:25,522
But, uh...

1272
01:05:35,924 --> 01:05:39,667
Surviving that day was, is...

1273
01:05:43,018 --> 01:05:44,932
the most painful thing

1274
01:05:44,933 --> 01:05:46,804
I will ever
have to live through.

1275
01:05:49,372 --> 01:05:51,679
I got hurt, too.

1276
01:05:52,680 --> 01:05:54,420
They put a hole in my head.

1277
01:05:55,465 --> 01:05:57,509
And, um,

1278
01:05:57,510 --> 01:05:59,163
that helped because
at least I had something

1279
01:05:59,164 --> 01:06:00,557
I could blame the pain on.

1280
01:06:03,299 --> 01:06:04,561
But then that healed...

1281
01:06:07,433 --> 01:06:08,870
and I was still hurting.

1282
01:06:10,828 --> 01:06:12,089
And I guess that's why
I didn't realize

1283
01:06:12,090 --> 01:06:14,136
how bad it was because to me...

1284
01:06:16,486 --> 01:06:18,183
I was still in so much pain.

1285
01:06:28,237 --> 01:06:31,500
I was, um, prescribed them
for physical pain,

1286
01:06:31,501 --> 01:06:33,634
and they really helped
with that. They really did.

1287
01:06:38,029 --> 01:06:40,553
But they made me numb.
Blissfully numb.

1288
01:06:46,124 --> 01:06:47,735
Without them I want to die.

1289
01:06:49,388 --> 01:06:50,999
Every day.

1290
01:06:54,742 --> 01:06:57,527
I've never said that
out loud before.

1291
01:07:00,704 --> 01:07:01,704
Um...

1292
01:07:03,664 --> 01:07:06,449
I've never really faced
reality without them.

1293
01:07:08,799 --> 01:07:11,018
And I don't know if I'll be
able to handle what I see,

1294
01:07:11,019 --> 01:07:14,370
but I'm here to try.

1295
01:07:19,157 --> 01:07:20,550
Okay. That's it.

1296
01:07:22,030 --> 01:07:24,336
That's it.

1297
01:07:28,079 --> 01:07:29,254
What happens now?

1298
01:07:45,575 --> 01:07:46,750
You made all of this?

1299
01:07:48,273 --> 01:07:51,972
Uh, I assembled it
and designed it.

1300
01:07:51,973 --> 01:07:53,713
Yeah.

1301
01:07:53,714 --> 01:07:57,629
You see,
the houses come as a kit.

1302
01:07:57,630 --> 01:08:00,589
You just assemble them
and paint them...

1303
01:08:00,590 --> 01:08:03,027
Schoolhouse,
I built from scratch.

1304
01:08:07,466 --> 01:08:10,860
Hey, there are two kids
making out back here.

1305
01:08:10,861 --> 01:08:12,471
That's me.

1306
01:08:13,603 --> 01:08:15,474
You were handsome.

1307
01:08:15,910 --> 01:08:16,954
And tiny.

1308
01:08:18,477 --> 01:08:22,133
Yeah, my very first kiss
behind the schoolhouse.

1309
01:08:23,787 --> 01:08:25,267
Olivia Williams.

1310
01:08:27,138 --> 01:08:29,575
It was fall.
Tip of her nose was cold.

1311
01:08:30,838 --> 01:08:32,795
Little runny.

1312
01:08:32,796 --> 01:08:36,060
She stood on tiptoe.
Tasted like bubble gum.

1313
01:08:37,279 --> 01:08:38,236
Is that who you married?

1314
01:08:38,237 --> 01:08:40,237
No! No, no.

1315
01:08:40,238 --> 01:08:44,067
No, she dumped me the next day
for Charlie Cook.

1316
01:08:44,068 --> 01:08:47,375
- Oh.
- He smoked Camels.

1317
01:08:47,376 --> 01:08:50,987
And drove
a Buick Riviera Roadmaster.

1318
01:08:50,988 --> 01:08:53,164
So, is this all inspired
by your life?

1319
01:08:53,948 --> 01:08:54,949
Kinda.

1320
01:08:56,167 --> 01:08:57,778
Supposed to be South Orange.

1321
01:08:59,127 --> 01:09:00,171
I grew up here.

1322
01:09:01,651 --> 01:09:03,261
I was a cop in Newark.

1323
01:09:04,306 --> 01:09:05,655
I've always lived here.

1324
01:09:07,831 --> 01:09:08,832
Who's the soldier?

1325
01:09:09,659 --> 01:09:11,051
That's me.

1326
01:09:11,052 --> 01:09:13,402
Day I got home from Vietnam.

1327
01:09:14,751 --> 01:09:17,231
That other little figure there
is my father.

1328
01:09:17,232 --> 01:09:20,625
He came down to the station
to pick me up.

1329
01:09:20,626 --> 01:09:22,585
- This is incredible.
- Mm.

1330
01:09:24,152 --> 01:09:25,892
How long did it take you?

1331
01:09:25,893 --> 01:09:27,894
Years.

1332
01:09:27,895 --> 01:09:30,071
I started
with a single figure-eight

1333
01:09:30,854 --> 01:09:32,725
and a two-car train.

1334
01:09:33,552 --> 01:09:35,163
I work on it when I can.

1335
01:09:36,207 --> 01:09:38,253
Got more time
now that I've retired.

1336
01:09:39,210 --> 01:09:41,081
My wife passed.

1337
01:09:41,082 --> 01:09:43,388
Ryan used to hang out with me
down here.

1338
01:09:44,694 --> 01:09:47,609
She liked the whistle
and the microphone.

1339
01:09:47,610 --> 01:09:48,958
There's a microphone?

1340
01:09:48,959 --> 01:09:50,394
Right over there.

1341
01:09:50,395 --> 01:09:52,005
How else you gonna tell
your passengers

1342
01:09:52,006 --> 01:09:53,703
that the train's coming?

1343
01:10:09,850 --> 01:10:13,287
<i>♪ Take the last train
to Clarksville ♪</i>

1344
01:10:13,288 --> 01:10:16,333
<i>♪ And I'll meet you
at the station ♪</i>

1345
01:10:16,334 --> 01:10:19,206
<i>♪ You can be there by 4:30 ♪</i>

1346
01:10:19,207 --> 01:10:21,295
<i>♪ 'Cause I booked
your reservation ♪</i>

1347
01:10:21,296 --> 01:10:23,123
<i>♪ Don't be slow ♪</i>

1348
01:10:23,124 --> 01:10:25,255
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1349
01:10:25,256 --> 01:10:27,649
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1350
01:10:27,650 --> 01:10:29,956
<i>♪ And I don't know
if I'm ever ♪</i>

1351
01:10:29,957 --> 01:10:31,654
<i>♪ Coming home ♪</i>

1352
01:10:33,047 --> 01:10:35,439
That was just a little
serenade for your people

1353
01:10:35,440 --> 01:10:37,006
from the heavens above.

1354
01:10:37,007 --> 01:10:40,227
Think that's one of the
reasons I enjoy it so much.

1355
01:10:40,228 --> 01:10:42,925
Why?
'Cause you get to play God?

1356
01:10:42,926 --> 01:10:46,538
Well, so much of my life
has been outta control.

1357
01:10:48,714 --> 01:10:50,890
Down here,

1358
01:10:50,891 --> 01:10:53,806
I get to decide
if Olivia chooses me.

1359
01:10:55,721 --> 01:10:57,766
I get to decide
if my father comes

1360
01:10:57,767 --> 01:11:00,074
to pick me up at the station
when I get home.

1361
01:11:01,205 --> 01:11:02,510
Did he?

1362
01:11:02,511 --> 01:11:03,599
No.

1363
01:11:05,862 --> 01:11:08,734
He was passed out drunk
in our backyard.

1364
01:11:11,433 --> 01:11:14,044
He'd lain face down so long,

1365
01:11:15,393 --> 01:11:17,961
an inch of snow had gathered
on his back.

1366
01:11:22,052 --> 01:11:24,620
Next morning at breakfast,
he offered me a beer,

1367
01:11:26,274 --> 01:11:27,318
so...

1368
01:11:29,016 --> 01:11:31,235
I had a beer with him
at breakfast,

1369
01:11:33,585 --> 01:11:34,935
and I never stopped.

1370
01:11:40,375 --> 01:11:42,203
When did you last talk
to Nathan?

1371
01:11:46,903 --> 01:11:48,860
Daniel, this is God.

1372
01:11:48,861 --> 01:11:52,082
Allison would like you to
change the conversation now.

1373
01:11:53,562 --> 01:11:55,519
I'll bet she would.

1374
01:11:55,520 --> 01:11:57,958
All right.
Let's get outta here.

1375
01:12:09,534 --> 01:12:10,795
Ryan?

1376
01:12:10,796 --> 01:12:13,146
It's only one o'clock.
Why are you home?

1377
01:12:13,147 --> 01:12:15,626
We had a half-day
for the active shooter drill.

1378
01:12:15,627 --> 01:12:17,802
I told you this morning.

1379
01:12:17,803 --> 01:12:20,892
Well, this is a friend of mine
from the program.

1380
01:12:20,893 --> 01:12:21,893
Hi.

1381
01:12:23,070 --> 01:12:24,679
Hi.

1382
01:12:24,680 --> 01:12:26,594
- You should probably get going.
- Yeah. Yeah.

1383
01:12:26,595 --> 01:12:28,465
I'm gonna go.

1384
01:12:28,466 --> 01:12:30,859
Wait, I know you from somewhere.

1385
01:12:30,860 --> 01:12:31,948
No, you don't.

1386
01:12:32,383 --> 01:12:33,341
You do?

1387
01:12:33,341 --> 01:12:34,341
How do I know you?

1388
01:12:34,951 --> 01:12:36,996
Uh... My... I'm...

1389
01:12:36,997 --> 01:12:38,432
I'm Allison.

1390
01:12:38,433 --> 01:12:40,086
Yeah, I've seen you before.

1391
01:12:40,087 --> 01:12:42,392
I thought you said the active
shooter drill ended at 2:00.

1392
01:12:42,393 --> 01:12:44,612
Yeah, that's when the pretend
shooter fights back.

1393
01:12:44,613 --> 01:12:46,615
Today, he shot himself,
so we got out early.

1394
01:12:48,225 --> 01:12:49,399
Why do I know you?

1395
01:12:49,400 --> 01:12:51,140
I'm not sure
what I'm supposed to say.

1396
01:12:51,141 --> 01:12:53,273
- You were Nathan's fiancee.
- No.

1397
01:12:53,274 --> 01:12:54,926
- You were in the car.
- No.

1398
01:12:54,927 --> 01:12:57,190
- I was, yeah.
- Weren't you driving?

1399
01:12:57,191 --> 01:12:58,191
Wasn't she driving?

1400
01:12:58,192 --> 01:12:59,670
We're in the program together.

1401
01:12:59,671 --> 01:13:01,803
- But I thought you said it was her fault.
- What?

1402
01:13:01,804 --> 01:13:04,066
How could you bring her
into our house?

1403
01:13:04,067 --> 01:13:05,633
Get out of our fucking house!

1404
01:13:05,634 --> 01:13:07,548
Okay. It's okay.
I'm sorry. I...

1405
01:13:07,549 --> 01:13:10,246
I'm so sorry.
I thought you were in school.

1406
01:13:10,247 --> 01:13:11,682
You ruined my fucking life!

1407
01:13:11,683 --> 01:13:14,946
I know, I know, I know.
I'm... I'm really sorry.

1408
01:13:14,947 --> 01:13:18,254
You shouldn't
be here! This is our house!

1409
01:13:18,255 --> 01:13:19,516
My mom grew up in here!

1410
01:13:19,517 --> 01:13:21,736
I sleep in her bedroom.
I use her sheets!

1411
01:13:21,737 --> 01:13:23,781
All right. All right.
She's leaving.

1412
01:13:23,782 --> 01:13:26,001
Uh, just in case
this is the last time

1413
01:13:26,002 --> 01:13:28,091
I ever get to talk to you,
please know,

1414
01:13:29,832 --> 01:13:32,313
I also wish it was me.

1415
01:13:33,140 --> 01:13:34,402
Okay? I do.

1416
01:13:35,664 --> 01:13:36,968
I'm gonna go.

1417
01:13:36,969 --> 01:13:38,841
I never got to say goodbye.

1418
01:13:40,060 --> 01:13:42,758
I know.

1419
01:13:46,066 --> 01:13:49,330
They were going to see a play.

1420
01:13:54,987 --> 01:13:56,119
I know.

1421
01:13:57,773 --> 01:13:59,295
She wanted to see a musical,

1422
01:13:59,296 --> 01:14:01,559
because she loved
all the fancy costumes.

1423
01:14:06,695 --> 01:14:08,174
I didn't know that.

1424
01:14:08,175 --> 01:14:11,133
She said you made Nate
really happy.

1425
01:14:11,134 --> 01:14:13,294
That you were the best thing
that ever happened to him.

1426
01:14:14,442 --> 01:14:15,965
He made me happy, too.

1427
01:14:20,796 --> 01:14:22,885
Okay, I'm gonna go.

1428
01:14:23,842 --> 01:14:25,061
Allison.

1429
01:14:27,803 --> 01:14:28,804
Yeah.

1430
01:14:30,240 --> 01:14:31,676
Would you like to stay
for dinner?

1431
01:14:32,547 --> 01:14:33,809
What?

1432
01:14:35,550 --> 01:14:36,550
Uh...

1433
01:14:46,430 --> 01:14:49,780
So, you're an alcoholic, too?

1434
01:14:49,781 --> 01:14:51,130
Ryan.

1435
01:14:51,131 --> 01:14:52,219
Uh, no.

1436
01:14:53,655 --> 01:14:56,396
Alcohol's not exactly
my problem.

1437
01:14:56,397 --> 01:14:58,267
What is? Meth?

1438
01:14:58,268 --> 01:14:59,573
Ryan.

1439
01:14:59,574 --> 01:15:02,751
No. Not meth. Um...

1440
01:15:05,841 --> 01:15:07,930
Prescription painkillers.

1441
01:15:08,670 --> 01:15:09,844
Oxy.

1442
01:15:09,845 --> 01:15:11,498
How do you know about Oxy?

1443
01:15:11,499 --> 01:15:13,195
Kids at my school snort it.

1444
01:15:13,196 --> 01:15:14,327
It's heroin!

1445
01:15:14,328 --> 01:15:15,676
No, it's not.

1446
01:15:15,677 --> 01:15:17,068
I could get it easier
than I could get a beer.

1447
01:15:17,069 --> 01:15:18,375
They sell it at Rite Aid.

1448
01:15:20,160 --> 01:15:21,986
- So why'd you dump Uncle Nate?
- Ryan.

1449
01:15:21,987 --> 01:15:23,379
He said you ghosted him.

1450
01:15:23,380 --> 01:15:24,685
It's not your business.

1451
01:15:24,686 --> 01:15:27,557
I just don't understand how

1452
01:15:27,558 --> 01:15:29,342
if he was gonna stay with you,

1453
01:15:29,343 --> 01:15:31,431
even after
everything that happened,

1454
01:15:31,432 --> 01:15:32,433
why'd you dump him?

1455
01:15:33,782 --> 01:15:35,000
I was upset.

1456
01:15:39,048 --> 01:15:40,788
And so I ran.

1457
01:15:40,789 --> 01:15:42,485
Like you, quitting soccer.
Shut up!

1458
01:15:42,486 --> 01:15:44,313
You don't say "shut up" to me!

1459
01:15:44,314 --> 01:15:45,620
Ever again!

1460
01:15:48,536 --> 01:15:50,276
Why'd you quit soccer?

1461
01:15:50,277 --> 01:15:51,799
- She got into a fight. - 'Cause
I hate every girl on the team.

1462
01:15:51,800 --> 01:15:52,844
Oh.

1463
01:15:54,542 --> 01:15:56,587
Your parents were telling me
how amazing you were.

1464
01:15:58,154 --> 01:15:59,937
They were?
Mm-hmm.

1465
01:15:59,938 --> 01:16:01,896
Your dad actually was saying

1466
01:16:01,897 --> 01:16:03,777
how you were definitely
gonna get a scholarship.

1467
01:16:05,640 --> 01:16:07,207
I wanna go to Stanford.

1468
01:16:09,557 --> 01:16:11,080
Why are you laughing?

1469
01:16:13,169 --> 01:16:16,867
You quit the team,
you're mouthing off in school,

1470
01:16:16,868 --> 01:16:18,217
and you're not doing
your homework.

1471
01:16:18,218 --> 01:16:20,001
You're gonna get into Stanford?

1472
01:16:20,002 --> 01:16:21,655
I didn't say
I quit the team permanently.

1473
01:16:21,656 --> 01:16:23,613
I said I wanted to take a break.

1474
01:16:23,614 --> 01:16:25,006
And I had a 4.0 down the shore.

1475
01:16:25,007 --> 01:16:27,138
I could get it back
in a second if I cared.

1476
01:16:27,139 --> 01:16:28,401
Why don't you care?

1477
01:16:28,402 --> 01:16:29,402
Why, do you think?

1478
01:16:31,100 --> 01:16:32,318
Shit.
Okay.

1479
01:16:32,319 --> 01:16:33,580
Why don't we just
call it a night, okay?

1480
01:16:33,581 --> 01:16:34,886
Yeah, I'm gonna go home.

1481
01:16:39,848 --> 01:16:41,241
Hey, um...

1482
01:16:44,679 --> 01:16:47,725
Um, just in case you,
I don't know,

1483
01:16:49,684 --> 01:16:51,120
wanna talk, need to talk...

1484
01:16:52,556 --> 01:16:53,643
This is me.

1485
01:16:53,644 --> 01:16:55,690
And it's up to you,
but I'm here.

1486
01:16:56,995 --> 01:16:58,127
Okay.

1487
01:17:02,523 --> 01:17:04,263
I'm sorry about all that.

1488
01:17:04,264 --> 01:17:05,482
Uh, it's fine.

1489
01:17:07,310 --> 01:17:09,180
You see what I'm dealing with.

1490
01:17:09,181 --> 01:17:10,705
Honestly, it's okay.

1491
01:17:11,836 --> 01:17:13,055
Look.

1492
01:17:14,186 --> 01:17:16,101
She's a very fragile kid.

1493
01:17:17,407 --> 01:17:21,629
So, I'd appreciate it
if you didn't contact her.

1494
01:17:23,544 --> 01:17:24,588
Oh.

1495
01:17:25,241 --> 01:17:26,242
Okay.

1496
01:17:27,765 --> 01:17:30,114
Yeah, I just...

1497
01:17:30,115 --> 01:17:33,335
I just wanted her
to know that I was available

1498
01:17:33,336 --> 01:17:35,816
if she wanted to talk
or anything.

1499
01:17:35,817 --> 01:17:37,949
I'm just asking if you will

1500
01:17:38,907 --> 01:17:40,387
please just let her be.

1501
01:17:41,257 --> 01:17:42,475
Scout's honor.

1502
01:17:42,476 --> 01:17:45,347
No, that's Spock's
"Live long and prosper."

1503
01:17:45,348 --> 01:17:47,001
We Boy Scouts do this.

1504
01:17:47,002 --> 01:17:49,134
Oh. I prefer Spock.

1505
01:17:50,048 --> 01:17:52,049
Live long and prosper, Daniel.

1506
01:17:52,050 --> 01:17:53,138
Good night.
Thank you.

1507
01:18:09,067 --> 01:18:10,068
Mmm.

1508
01:19:46,513 --> 01:19:48,557
Go, baby! Go, go, go!

1509
01:19:48,558 --> 01:19:49,950
Come on, come on, come on.

1510
01:19:49,951 --> 01:19:51,342
Come on!
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!

1511
01:19:51,343 --> 01:19:53,170
Yeah!

1512
01:19:53,171 --> 01:19:54,346
Attagirl!

1513
01:19:55,347 --> 01:19:56,827
Attagirl!

1514
01:20:01,310 --> 01:20:02,442
Thank you.

1515
01:20:44,571 --> 01:20:46,011
<i>Why do you ride
your bike everywhere?</i>

1516
01:20:46,573 --> 01:20:47,617
Um...

1517
01:20:49,097 --> 01:20:51,142
I haven't been in a car
since the accident.

1518
01:20:51,926 --> 01:20:53,493
'Cause you feel guilty?

1519
01:20:55,973 --> 01:20:57,105
Uh, no.

1520
01:20:57,801 --> 01:21:01,369
Because I feel... scared.

1521
01:21:01,370 --> 01:21:02,893
Daniel says
you were using your phone.

1522
01:21:05,200 --> 01:21:07,115
Uh, I was using Maps.

1523
01:21:08,420 --> 01:21:09,508
Everyone uses Maps.

1524
01:21:09,509 --> 01:21:11,379
Yeah, well,
he has all the reports.

1525
01:21:11,380 --> 01:21:12,599
He's memorized them.

1526
01:21:13,817 --> 01:21:15,949
He stares at them at night.
It's weird.

1527
01:21:15,950 --> 01:21:18,952
Okay, well, I was there.

1528
01:21:18,953 --> 01:21:23,739
And the person who wrote
those reports wasn't, so...

1529
01:21:23,740 --> 01:21:26,176
Tell me
why you ended it with Nate.

1530
01:21:26,177 --> 01:21:28,057
My mom would want you guys
to be together still.

1531
01:21:29,267 --> 01:21:31,356
Ryan, I don't even know
what to say to that.

1532
01:21:32,357 --> 01:21:34,272
My mom used to really, um...

1533
01:21:36,536 --> 01:21:39,451
just, like, look out for him
and stuff, you know? Um...

1534
01:21:40,409 --> 01:21:41,453
And...

1535
01:21:42,846 --> 01:21:45,545
I've been thinking
maybe now I'm supposed to.

1536
01:21:46,415 --> 01:21:47,547
Because she can't.

1537
01:21:49,113 --> 01:21:51,593
I bet that would make her
really proud.

1538
01:21:51,594 --> 01:21:52,855
I could tell you
about what's happening

1539
01:21:52,856 --> 01:21:53,900
- with him if you want.
- No, that's okay.

1540
01:21:53,901 --> 01:21:55,249
Thank you, though.

1541
01:21:55,250 --> 01:21:56,642
I've tried really hard
to avoid all of that...

1542
01:21:56,643 --> 01:21:57,860
He moved to Tribeca.

1543
01:21:57,861 --> 01:21:58,862
Wow.

1544
01:21:59,950 --> 01:22:01,908
Yeah. He has a dog.

1545
01:22:01,909 --> 01:22:03,562
- A dog?
- Mm-hmm.

1546
01:22:03,563 --> 01:22:06,303
A French Bulldog named Jasper.

1547
01:22:06,304 --> 01:22:08,131
He never really struck me
as a Frenchie type,

1548
01:22:08,132 --> 01:22:09,959
but okay.

1549
01:22:09,960 --> 01:22:11,222
It's his girlfriend's.

1550
01:22:15,836 --> 01:22:16,837
Oh.

1551
01:22:17,968 --> 01:22:19,056
Yeah.

1552
01:22:20,536 --> 01:22:22,625
I... I don't need to hear this.

1553
01:22:23,844 --> 01:22:25,497
- Are you okay?
- Mm-hmm.

1554
01:22:27,456 --> 01:22:29,631
How long have they been
going out?

1555
01:22:29,632 --> 01:22:32,504
I don't know.
Like, four months, I think.

1556
01:22:33,288 --> 01:22:34,202
Wow.

1557
01:22:34,203 --> 01:22:37,553
Yeah. She's a paralegal.

1558
01:22:38,598 --> 01:22:39,772
I don't even know what that is.

1559
01:22:39,773 --> 01:22:41,513
Is that, like, a good thing?

1560
01:22:42,776 --> 01:22:44,690
Yeah. Wow.

1561
01:22:44,691 --> 01:22:46,822
- You just keep saying, "Wow."
- Yeah.

1562
01:22:46,823 --> 01:22:48,259
It's just a lot to take in.

1563
01:22:50,044 --> 01:22:51,522
Um...

1564
01:22:51,523 --> 01:22:54,090
I'm really happy for him. I am.

1565
01:22:54,091 --> 01:22:55,702
He really deserves to be happy.

1566
01:22:56,572 --> 01:22:58,094
I...

1567
01:22:58,095 --> 01:23:00,140
- I shouldn't have told you.
- No, no, no. It's fine.

1568
01:23:00,141 --> 01:23:02,229
But you're upset.

1569
01:23:02,230 --> 01:23:04,275
We went through
so much together.

1570
01:23:06,451 --> 01:23:09,585
I really want good things
to happen to him.

1571
01:23:10,455 --> 01:23:11,804
I'm really sorry

1572
01:23:11,805 --> 01:23:13,066
I made you upset.
It's okay.

1573
01:23:13,067 --> 01:23:14,241
- I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
- I really

1574
01:23:14,242 --> 01:23:15,634
meant for this to be friendly.

1575
01:23:15,635 --> 01:23:17,637
Yeah. I'll see you in a second.

1576
01:24:08,818 --> 01:24:10,297
Hey.

1577
01:24:10,298 --> 01:24:11,777
Is something wrong?

1578
01:24:11,778 --> 01:24:14,127
I, um... I forgot
I have a job interview.

1579
01:24:14,128 --> 01:24:16,825
So, I'm gonna go.

1580
01:24:16,826 --> 01:24:18,132
You sick?

1581
01:24:18,741 --> 01:24:19,741
Yeah.

1582
01:24:19,742 --> 01:24:22,091
- Withdrawal?
- I'm trying.

1583
01:24:22,092 --> 01:24:23,964
All right. Look, don't stop.

1584
01:24:24,878 --> 01:24:25,879
- Okay?
- Okay.

1585
01:24:27,489 --> 01:24:28,489
Don't use.

1586
01:24:30,187 --> 01:24:31,361
Okay.

1587
01:24:31,362 --> 01:24:32,754
Don't stay home tonight.
Do something.

1588
01:24:32,755 --> 01:24:34,714
- Okay. Okay.
- All right? Okay.

1589
01:24:35,932 --> 01:24:36,932
You need a hug?

1590
01:24:38,718 --> 01:24:39,718
Um, if I hug you,

1591
01:24:39,719 --> 01:24:41,502
I'm gonna sob, so no.

1592
01:24:41,503 --> 01:24:43,025
Well, I can handle that.

1593
01:24:43,026 --> 01:24:45,071
No, I shouldn't. Not in front
of Ryan.

1594
01:24:45,072 --> 01:24:46,594
Okay.

1595
01:24:46,595 --> 01:24:48,466
Well, I'm hugging you
with my eyes.

1596
01:24:48,902 --> 01:24:49,902
Thank you.

1597
01:24:51,121 --> 01:24:52,514
- Be careful.
- Okay.

1598
01:24:56,692 --> 01:24:59,434
I have to go.
So, I'll see you another time.

1599
01:24:59,782 --> 01:25:00,782
Bye.

1600
01:25:03,090 --> 01:25:04,221
Fuck me.

1601
01:25:04,656 --> 01:25:05,656
Hey.

1602
01:25:06,006 --> 01:25:07,093
Let's go.

1603
01:25:07,094 --> 01:25:08,616
This asshole charged me six buck

1604
01:25:08,617 --> 01:25:09,777
for a cup of coffee. Come on.

1605
01:25:11,881 --> 01:25:14,622
Okay.

1606
01:25:14,623 --> 01:25:17,799
<i>♪ It starts so early now ♪</i>

1607
01:25:17,800 --> 01:25:21,542
<i>♪ The sun has gone
to Birkenau ♪</i>

1608
01:25:21,543 --> 01:25:25,154
<i>♪ As shadows creep
across your brow ♪</i>

1609
01:25:25,155 --> 01:25:27,418
<i>♪ I love you just the same ♪</i>

1610
01:25:28,942 --> 01:25:30,203
Fuck!

1611
01:25:30,204 --> 01:25:32,292
<i>♪ These freakish holidays ♪</i>

1612
01:25:32,293 --> 01:25:36,209
<i>♪ That make us act
like renegades ♪</i>

1613
01:25:36,210 --> 01:25:39,821
<i>♪ A blood bath
at the Ice Capades ♪</i>

1614
01:25:39,822 --> 01:25:42,084
<i>♪ Just makes me love you ♪</i>

1615
01:25:42,085 --> 01:25:47,916
<i>♪ More than I should ever
have been allowed ♪</i>

1616
01:25:47,917 --> 01:25:51,137
<i>♪ In a world of candy guns ♪</i>

1617
01:25:51,138 --> 01:25:56,664
<i>♪ Sweet as demons
in the candy apple sun ♪</i>

1618
01:25:56,665 --> 01:26:02,757
<i>♪ Think it quiet but then
don't sing it loud ♪</i>

1619
01:26:02,758 --> 01:26:05,891
<i>♪ Through a world
of number ones ♪</i>

1620
01:26:05,892 --> 01:26:08,676
<i>♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪</i>

1621
01:26:08,677 --> 01:26:09,809
Look at me!

1622
01:26:13,682 --> 01:26:16,162
<i>♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪</i>

1623
01:26:16,163 --> 01:26:19,556
<i>♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪</i>

1624
01:26:19,557 --> 01:26:22,734
<i>♪ I love you seven ways ♪</i>

1625
01:26:24,214 --> 01:26:26,869
<i>♪ You wear those baby tees ♪</i>

1626
01:26:28,915 --> 01:26:30,611
<i>Allie!</i>

1627
01:26:30,612 --> 01:26:33,136
<i>Allie!</i>

1628
01:26:34,659 --> 01:26:35,703
Allie?

1629
01:26:35,704 --> 01:26:37,488
Did you job hunt today?

1630
01:26:41,623 --> 01:26:43,016
Please leave me alone.

1631
01:26:43,755 --> 01:26:46,105
I was looking on Etsy.

1632
01:26:46,106 --> 01:26:48,194
And I was thinking
it would be so cute

1633
01:26:48,195 --> 01:26:50,022
if we found, like,
a craft that we like.

1634
01:26:50,023 --> 01:26:52,263
And maybe we could make a little money.
What do you think?

1635
01:27:08,955 --> 01:27:10,346
I was thinking it'd be so cute

1636
01:27:10,347 --> 01:27:12,218
if it was like something fun
that we could sell.

1637
01:27:12,219 --> 01:27:16,135
Like little bibs for babies
that catch their food,

1638
01:27:16,136 --> 01:27:18,746
or salad dressing.

1639
01:27:18,747 --> 01:27:21,054
Or you know, just...

1640
01:27:22,707 --> 01:27:23,969
And you know what?

1641
01:27:23,970 --> 01:27:25,840
We could be on <i>Shark Tank!</i>

1642
01:27:25,841 --> 01:27:27,711
Can you imagine, Allie?

1643
01:27:27,712 --> 01:27:28,930
And I know you're like,

1644
01:27:28,931 --> 01:27:31,237
"Oh, shut up, Mom!
You're drunk again."

1645
01:27:31,238 --> 01:27:32,369
But listen...

1646
01:27:43,076 --> 01:27:45,077
Ooh, I just thought
of the best idea!

1647
01:27:45,078 --> 01:27:48,081
We could do, um, papier-mache!

1648
01:27:48,908 --> 01:27:50,473
Papier-mache!

1649
01:27:50,474 --> 01:27:52,171
So it would be like,

1650
01:27:52,172 --> 01:27:53,955
do a little dance,
a little song.

1651
01:27:53,956 --> 01:27:56,088
"Hey, Sharks! You know how
everybody likes papier-mache."

1652
01:27:56,089 --> 01:27:59,526
I would be like,
"Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!"

1653
01:27:59,527 --> 01:28:02,007
Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!"

1654
01:28:02,008 --> 01:28:04,444
Wait, that's too hard.
We'll be like,

1655
01:28:04,445 --> 01:28:08,230
"I'm Diane.
This is my associate, Allison.

1656
01:28:08,231 --> 01:28:13,367
"And this is our... whatever!"
You know...

1657
01:28:14,542 --> 01:28:16,369
You weak piece of fucking shit.

1658
01:28:16,370 --> 01:28:18,415
You couldn't make it go
two days.

1659
01:28:19,677 --> 01:28:21,157
I fucking hate you.

1660
01:28:21,984 --> 01:28:25,421
I hate you so much.

1661
01:28:25,422 --> 01:28:28,207
Allie, do you remember
when you were in fourth grade,

1662
01:28:28,208 --> 01:28:30,687
you made
that giant mitochondria?

1663
01:28:30,688 --> 01:28:35,649
That's something that
would sell, I promise you.

1664
01:28:35,650 --> 01:28:38,260
We could be like,
"Hey, Sharks!"

1665
01:28:38,261 --> 01:28:40,784
We got them for you!
Papier-mache!"

1666
01:28:40,785 --> 01:28:44,441
You know, like all the...

1667
01:28:51,840 --> 01:28:54,582
I knew you would like
that idea! I knew it!

1668
01:30:22,061 --> 01:30:23,062
Yes!

1669
01:30:25,064 --> 01:30:26,587
You're on the wrong side.

1670
01:30:27,370 --> 01:30:29,242
What? No, I'm not.

1671
01:30:32,375 --> 01:30:33,941
Oh.

1672
01:30:33,942 --> 01:30:35,464
Well, good thing you came!

1673
01:30:35,465 --> 01:30:36,640
Oh, my God!

1674
01:30:37,163 --> 01:30:38,511
Get over here.

1675
01:30:38,512 --> 01:30:40,079
Whoo! Party!

1676
01:30:58,836 --> 01:31:00,576
- Hello, Diane!
- Oh, hey!

1677
01:31:00,577 --> 01:31:02,622
I don't know

1678
01:31:02,623 --> 01:31:04,929
how much Allison has told you.

1679
01:31:06,192 --> 01:31:08,149
But we've been going
to the same program.

1680
01:31:08,150 --> 01:31:10,239
Oh, yeah, she said.
She told me, yeah.

1681
01:31:11,153 --> 01:31:12,414
My granddaughter, Ryan,

1682
01:31:12,415 --> 01:31:15,417
has taken an interest
in Allison and,

1683
01:31:15,418 --> 01:31:17,115
well, now I can't find her.

1684
01:31:17,116 --> 01:31:20,031
So I just thought I'd drop by
and see if she might be here.

1685
01:31:21,294 --> 01:31:22,772
I tried texting them,

1686
01:31:22,773 --> 01:31:26,124
but, you know,
they all go green.

1687
01:31:26,125 --> 01:31:27,125
Do you know what that means?

1688
01:31:27,126 --> 01:31:28,387
I have no idea.

1689
01:31:28,388 --> 01:31:30,606
I hate when that happens,
when they go...

1690
01:31:30,607 --> 01:31:32,042
It's all green

1691
01:31:32,043 --> 01:31:33,609
and you don't know
if it's sent. It's so weird.

1692
01:31:33,610 --> 01:31:35,394
Right. Right. Right.
Drives me crazy.

1693
01:31:35,395 --> 01:31:37,355
You'll have to let me know
if you figure that out.

1694
01:31:39,138 --> 01:31:40,790
I'm not tech-y.

1695
01:31:40,791 --> 01:31:44,229
But I actually tonight was
trying to find Allison myself.

1696
01:31:44,230 --> 01:31:46,319
But do you really think
they're together tonight?

1697
01:31:48,147 --> 01:31:50,018
Both missing
at the same time. It...

1698
01:31:51,237 --> 01:31:52,846
seems a little curious.

1699
01:31:52,847 --> 01:31:55,153
Seems like
no matter how old they get,

1700
01:31:55,154 --> 01:31:57,459
- you never stop worrying.
- Yeah.

1701
01:31:57,460 --> 01:31:58,896
But they always seem to turn up.

1702
01:32:00,376 --> 01:32:01,595
Not always.

1703
01:32:03,466 --> 01:32:04,945
Yeah.

1704
01:32:04,946 --> 01:32:07,730
Well, can you let me know
if you find them?

1705
01:32:07,731 --> 01:32:09,255
- I will.
- Great.

1706
01:32:11,257 --> 01:32:12,257
Thank you.

1707
01:32:13,041 --> 01:32:14,476
What's that?

1708
01:32:14,477 --> 01:32:15,651
Oh, I was just... I...

1709
01:32:15,652 --> 01:32:17,827
I was just saying
thank you so much

1710
01:32:17,828 --> 01:32:20,134
for being so kind to Allison.

1711
01:32:20,135 --> 01:32:23,442
She said you've always been
so warm to her and you know,

1712
01:32:23,443 --> 01:32:26,793
I... just wanted to say thanks,
'cause, you know,

1713
01:32:26,794 --> 01:32:30,492
like, some people
wouldn't be like that, so...

1714
01:32:30,493 --> 01:32:34,235
Well, we're all just trying
to move on, I suppose.

1715
01:32:34,236 --> 01:32:35,541
Yeah.

1716
01:32:35,542 --> 01:32:36,672
I don't think
Allie and I are doing

1717
01:32:36,673 --> 01:32:38,458
a very good job of that, Daniel.

1718
01:32:39,850 --> 01:32:41,199
You know what they say.

1719
01:32:41,200 --> 01:32:42,983
What?

1720
01:32:42,984 --> 01:32:45,725
"Comparison
is the thief of joy."

1721
01:32:45,726 --> 01:32:48,076
Oh. I didn't know
they said that.

1722
01:32:49,512 --> 01:32:50,557
Well...

1723
01:32:51,732 --> 01:32:53,036
somebody did.

1724
01:32:53,037 --> 01:32:54,996
Yeah.

1725
01:32:56,476 --> 01:32:58,085
Well, I best be going then.

1726
01:32:58,086 --> 01:32:59,521
Oh, yeah, of course.

1727
01:32:59,522 --> 01:33:00,915
Night.
Good night.

1728
01:33:15,103 --> 01:33:17,497
<i>♪ Stare into space ♪</i>

1729
01:33:19,020 --> 01:33:20,760
<i>♪ Out in the blue ♪</i>

1730
01:33:20,761 --> 01:33:22,196
Oh, my God, there he is!

1731
01:33:22,197 --> 01:33:23,938
Look at him! Isn't he so hot?

1732
01:33:25,679 --> 01:33:27,506
Is that a face tattoo?

1733
01:33:27,507 --> 01:33:29,639
- Yeah!
- Oh, my God!

1734
01:33:30,597 --> 01:33:32,859
I love this song!

1735
01:33:32,860 --> 01:33:34,295
Quinn sent it to me
in a playlist.

1736
01:33:34,296 --> 01:33:36,733
He, like, knows so much
about music.

1737
01:33:38,779 --> 01:33:39,867
Thank you.

1738
01:33:40,998 --> 01:33:42,261
For getting me to come.

1739
01:33:43,131 --> 01:33:44,219
Yeah.

1740
01:33:45,394 --> 01:33:48,701
<i>♪ You're the only thing ♪</i>

1741
01:33:48,702 --> 01:33:50,224
That's the guitarist, Thomas.

1742
01:33:50,225 --> 01:33:53,140
He's staring right at you!

1743
01:33:53,141 --> 01:33:55,490
Oh, stop.
No, I'm okay. I'm fine.

1744
01:33:55,491 --> 01:33:56,796
I know, you can do
so much better.

1745
01:33:56,797 --> 01:33:58,494
What? No.
But he is fucking hot.

1746
01:34:00,453 --> 01:34:04,543
Uh... Okay, I, um...
I gotta go get someone in.

1747
01:34:04,544 --> 01:34:05,501
But I'll be right back.

1748
01:34:05,502 --> 01:34:06,849
- Should I come with you?
- No.

1749
01:34:06,850 --> 01:34:08,547
- Are you sure?
- No, I'll be right back. Yeah.

1750
01:34:08,548 --> 01:34:10,680
<i>♪ Take a photo ♪</i>

1751
01:34:12,203 --> 01:34:14,293
<i>♪ Make it real ♪</i>

1752
01:34:16,338 --> 01:34:18,297
<i>♪ You're the stardust ♪</i>

1753
01:34:24,303 --> 01:34:27,653
<i>♪ Stardust ♪</i>

1754
01:34:27,654 --> 01:34:30,787
<i>♪ Lighting the fields ♪</i>

1755
01:34:32,528 --> 01:34:34,922
<i>♪ Caught in a state ♪</i>

1756
01:34:36,402 --> 01:34:38,969
<i>♪ Watching it fall ♪</i>

1757
01:34:40,101 --> 01:34:42,669
<i>♪ Aquarius bloom ♪</i>

1758
01:34:44,105 --> 01:34:46,586
<i>♪ Just bought a car ♪</i>

1759
01:34:52,592 --> 01:34:54,115
Surprise!

1760
01:34:55,986 --> 01:34:57,336
Nathan?

1761
01:34:58,467 --> 01:34:59,947
Hi!
Hi!

1762
01:35:01,165 --> 01:35:02,470
Ryan?

1763
01:35:02,471 --> 01:35:04,212
- What?
- Hi!

1764
01:35:05,387 --> 01:35:07,388
Uh, sorry.

1765
01:35:07,389 --> 01:35:10,566
Allie, uh,
this is my girlfriend, Joelle.

1766
01:35:11,654 --> 01:35:13,743
Hi. I'm sorry. Um...

1767
01:35:14,483 --> 01:35:15,570
Nice to meet you.

1768
01:35:15,571 --> 01:35:17,138
I've heard so much about you.

1769
01:35:18,008 --> 01:35:19,053
Oh.

1770
01:35:20,315 --> 01:35:21,315
Okay.

1771
01:35:21,316 --> 01:35:22,751
I think we're the victims

1772
01:35:22,752 --> 01:35:25,232
of a teenage girl's
good intentions.

1773
01:35:25,233 --> 01:35:26,973
What?
I said...

1774
01:35:26,974 --> 01:35:29,498
I said I think
she meant well. Ryan.

1775
01:35:32,109 --> 01:35:33,936
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go.

1776
01:35:33,937 --> 01:35:35,068
Are you good?
I'm fine.

1777
01:35:35,069 --> 01:35:36,374
I'm fine. I'm gonna go.

1778
01:35:36,375 --> 01:35:37,506
Allie!

1779
01:35:41,118 --> 01:35:42,641
Ryan.

1780
01:35:42,642 --> 01:35:44,557
What the fuck
did you just do that for?

1781
01:35:45,775 --> 01:35:47,863
No offense, but you weren't
supposed to come.

1782
01:35:47,864 --> 01:35:49,996
I know being a paralegal
is a good job,

1783
01:35:49,997 --> 01:35:51,563
but he's supposed
to be with Allie.

1784
01:35:51,564 --> 01:35:54,000
I'm sorry.
Ryan?

1785
01:35:54,001 --> 01:35:55,611
What the fuck did you just do?

1786
01:35:56,525 --> 01:35:58,047
I'm fixing it.

1787
01:35:58,048 --> 01:35:59,701
For Mom.

1788
01:35:59,702 --> 01:36:02,096
Go find her
and then I'm taking you home.

1789
01:36:05,708 --> 01:36:07,101
I am so sorry.

1790
01:36:07,754 --> 01:36:09,581
Serious... This...

1791
01:36:09,582 --> 01:36:10,973
- It's fine. It's okay.
- Yeah?

1792
01:36:10,974 --> 01:36:12,235
- Yeah. Yeah.
- You good?

1793
01:36:12,236 --> 01:36:13,585
I'm fine. I need a drink.

1794
01:36:13,586 --> 01:36:14,760
- But I'm fine.
- Yes.

1795
01:36:14,761 --> 01:36:16,023
Oh, fuck!

1796
01:36:20,854 --> 01:36:22,115
You guys have been great,

1797
01:36:22,116 --> 01:36:23,290
thank you so much!

1798
01:36:23,291 --> 01:36:24,683
Allie!

1799
01:36:24,684 --> 01:36:27,076
Why the fuck
did you just do that?

1800
01:36:27,077 --> 01:36:29,122
I thought it was gonna
make you happy.

1801
01:36:29,123 --> 01:36:32,168
You thought
that would make me happy?

1802
01:36:32,169 --> 01:36:33,909
Yeah!
Are you insane?

1803
01:36:33,910 --> 01:36:36,085
Hi! Can I please get, um...
Hey, I'm sorry.

1804
01:36:36,086 --> 01:36:38,784
Could I just get a glass
of tequila, please?

1805
01:36:38,785 --> 01:36:40,089
Fuck, I can't breathe.

1806
01:36:40,090 --> 01:36:41,395
- Ryan, I can't fucking breathe!
- Calm down.

1807
01:36:41,396 --> 01:36:43,223
Calm down, okay? I'm sorry.

1808
01:36:43,224 --> 01:36:45,355
You fucking did that on purpose!

1809
01:36:45,356 --> 01:36:46,661
You did that to hurt me, right?

1810
01:36:46,662 --> 01:36:48,489
Is that what you did?
Yeah, you did.

1811
01:36:48,490 --> 01:36:49,969
- Just admit it. Yes, you did!
- No, I didn't!

1812
01:36:49,970 --> 01:36:51,536
- You did that on fucking purpose!
- No, I didn't!

1813
01:36:51,537 --> 01:36:54,495
You killed, baby! You killed!

1814
01:36:54,496 --> 01:36:56,932
That was incredible, man!
Hi! Hi!

1815
01:36:56,933 --> 01:36:59,195
I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan.

1816
01:36:59,196 --> 01:37:01,067
You guys sounded so good!

1817
01:37:01,068 --> 01:37:02,895
You're gonna be so famous!

1818
01:37:02,896 --> 01:37:05,593
I know. I really have to savor
my anonymity.

1819
01:37:05,594 --> 01:37:09,336
Hey, we're gonna go to this
party over in Williamsburg.

1820
01:37:09,337 --> 01:37:10,860
You guys wanna come?

1821
01:37:12,471 --> 01:37:14,254
Fuck, yeah, whatever.
Let's go!

1822
01:37:14,255 --> 01:37:15,430
I need to get outta here.

1823
01:37:21,697 --> 01:37:23,481
Do you have the time?

1824
01:37:23,482 --> 01:37:25,353
Yeah.

1825
01:37:28,965 --> 01:37:31,097
Hey, Danny. Everything okay?

1826
01:37:31,098 --> 01:37:34,840
I can't find Ryan.
I've tried everything.

1827
01:37:34,841 --> 01:37:38,800
Anyway, my mind
can't help but wonder if...

1828
01:37:38,801 --> 01:37:41,063
Well, if you've seen Allison
or not.

1829
01:37:41,064 --> 01:37:44,327
Uh, no, I haven't, but I can
text her if you want.

1830
01:37:44,328 --> 01:37:45,720
Well, I've tried texting
both of them,

1831
01:37:45,721 --> 01:37:47,113
but neither one is answering.

1832
01:37:47,114 --> 01:37:48,331
What's wrong?

1833
01:37:48,332 --> 01:37:49,768
Daniel can't find
his granddaughter.

1834
01:37:49,769 --> 01:37:52,161
Um, well, if he pays for
the phone, he can just log

1835
01:37:52,162 --> 01:37:53,772
into the account,
and use Find My Phone.

1836
01:37:53,773 --> 01:37:56,209
Yeah. Daniel, do you know
what Find My Phone is?

1837
01:37:56,210 --> 01:37:57,690
No, what the hell is that?

1838
01:37:59,518 --> 01:38:01,781
This is amazing!

1839
01:38:02,564 --> 01:38:06,350
Whoa!

1840
01:38:28,764 --> 01:38:29,765
Fuck!

1841
01:38:31,245 --> 01:38:34,769
Allie, this is Jarvis. He has
the stuff you asked for.

1842
01:38:34,770 --> 01:38:36,031
Hey!

1843
01:38:36,032 --> 01:38:37,772
I don't have any thirties,
just dope.

1844
01:38:37,773 --> 01:38:40,776
Uh, yeah, okay.
Yeah, whatever you have.

1845
01:38:42,604 --> 01:38:44,300
Can you spot me?

1846
01:38:44,301 --> 01:38:46,421
- I'll pay you back, I promise.
- Uh, okay, all right.

1847
01:38:53,223 --> 01:38:54,224
Thanks.

1848
01:39:02,319 --> 01:39:03,886
It's coming. Look like!

1849
01:39:07,237 --> 01:39:08,195
Yeah, here it is.

1850
01:39:08,196 --> 01:39:09,370
Okay, what does it say?

1851
01:39:17,334 --> 01:39:20,033
The whole room is spinning.

1852
01:39:21,991 --> 01:39:23,514
Oh, that's my phone.

1853
01:39:24,777 --> 01:39:26,039
Don't worry about it.

1854
01:39:27,910 --> 01:39:30,608
Can we just stop for a second?

1855
01:39:30,609 --> 01:39:32,001
Where is my phone?

1856
01:39:34,090 --> 01:39:35,701
I think I'm gonna throw up.

1857
01:39:38,660 --> 01:39:39,922
What the fuck!

1858
01:39:41,271 --> 01:39:43,533
She's in the fucking city!

1859
01:39:43,534 --> 01:39:45,753
She's in fucking Williamsburg!

1860
01:39:45,754 --> 01:39:47,842
Okay, Daniel, wait.
I'm gonna come pick you up.

1861
01:39:47,843 --> 01:39:49,801
I don't want you to do
something you're gonna regret.

1862
01:39:49,802 --> 01:39:51,498
I'm gonna kill
that motherfucker.

1863
01:39:51,499 --> 01:39:53,819
Yeah, that's exactly what I'm
worried about. I'm on my way.

1864
01:40:07,036 --> 01:40:09,603
Okay. Easy does it.

1865
01:40:09,604 --> 01:40:11,606
- You're wasted.
- No, I'm not.

1866
01:40:14,043 --> 01:40:15,131
Ryan?

1867
01:40:39,808 --> 01:40:41,027
Ryan?

1868
01:40:45,248 --> 01:40:46,988
Ryan, are you in there?

1869
01:40:46,989 --> 01:40:49,338
She's fine.
Go the fuck away!

1870
01:40:49,339 --> 01:40:50,514
Ryan?

1871
01:40:58,914 --> 01:41:00,002
Ryan?

1872
01:41:01,482 --> 01:41:03,702
Can you just
open the door, please?

1873
01:41:06,008 --> 01:41:07,008
Ryan.

1874
01:41:07,009 --> 01:41:08,227
Go away!

1875
01:41:08,228 --> 01:41:10,446
Allison? Where's Ryan?

1876
01:41:10,447 --> 01:41:11,926
What're you doing here?

1877
01:41:11,927 --> 01:41:14,189
Where the fuck is Ryan?

1878
01:41:14,190 --> 01:41:16,496
She's in here. I'm trying to...
She won't answer.

1879
01:41:16,497 --> 01:41:17,585
Ryan!

1880
01:41:18,542 --> 01:41:19,587
Ryan?

1881
01:41:21,023 --> 01:41:22,721
It's your grandpa,
open the door.

1882
01:41:23,939 --> 01:41:25,418
Open the door, baby.

1883
01:41:25,419 --> 01:41:26,725
Fuck off!

1884
01:41:28,857 --> 01:41:30,902
What the fuck!
Ryan!

1885
01:41:30,903 --> 01:41:33,556
You again!
Get the fuck up!

1886
01:41:33,557 --> 01:41:34,732
- Danny, no, no, no.
- Oh, my God!

1887
01:41:34,733 --> 01:41:36,298
- Don't do that!
- Nothing happened.

1888
01:41:36,299 --> 01:41:38,866
Tell me why I shouldn't
kill you, motherfucker?

1889
01:41:38,867 --> 01:41:40,302
We were just making out.

1890
01:41:40,303 --> 01:41:41,522
You hurt my baby.

1891
01:41:44,177 --> 01:41:45,873
Now, I'm gonna hurt you.

1892
01:41:45,874 --> 01:41:47,310
No, no, no, no, no.
Danny!

1893
01:41:48,268 --> 01:41:49,268
Dad!

1894
01:41:49,704 --> 01:41:51,574
No!

1895
01:41:51,575 --> 01:41:54,099
The hell you're doing here?
This is family business.

1896
01:41:54,100 --> 01:41:55,753
Don't do this.

1897
01:41:55,754 --> 01:41:57,755
Go on back
to your new life, Nate.

1898
01:41:57,756 --> 01:41:59,408
Put the gun down, please.

1899
01:41:59,409 --> 01:42:00,758
Please, please!

1900
01:42:00,759 --> 01:42:02,150
He's not worth it.

1901
01:42:02,151 --> 01:42:04,413
I got nothing left to lose.

1902
01:42:04,414 --> 01:42:05,720
You got me!

1903
01:42:07,069 --> 01:42:08,157
You got Ryan!

1904
01:42:08,941 --> 01:42:10,332
We need you!

1905
01:42:10,333 --> 01:42:12,596
You do this, it's over!

1906
01:42:14,990 --> 01:42:16,599
We get no more time.

1907
01:42:16,600 --> 01:42:18,733
Danny, put the gun down.

1908
01:42:20,909 --> 01:42:21,910
Please.

1909
01:42:29,222 --> 01:42:30,223
Oh, my...

1910
01:42:31,833 --> 01:42:32,878
That's my niece.

1911
01:42:33,574 --> 01:42:35,010
She's 16 years old.

1912
01:42:36,969 --> 01:42:38,360
Oh, my God! All right,
we gotta get out of here.

1913
01:42:38,361 --> 01:42:39,492
Hey, Ryan, baby?

1914
01:42:39,493 --> 01:42:41,059
- Please get up.
- My fucking nose!

1915
01:42:41,060 --> 01:42:44,063
Get over here!
My fucking nose!

1916
01:42:57,293 --> 01:42:58,816
The fuck is the matter with you?

1917
01:42:58,817 --> 01:43:00,252
I was trying to protect her!

1918
01:43:00,253 --> 01:43:01,644
Protect her?
Yeah!

1919
01:43:01,645 --> 01:43:03,908
I told you to stay away
from her!

1920
01:43:03,909 --> 01:43:05,170
Who the fuck are you

1921
01:43:05,171 --> 01:43:06,693
to be talking
about protecting somebody?

1922
01:43:06,694 --> 01:43:08,303
- You're a mess.
- Dad!

1923
01:43:08,304 --> 01:43:10,740
I was... I was trying to help.

1924
01:43:10,741 --> 01:43:12,265
I was... I was trying to...

1925
01:43:13,092 --> 01:43:14,527
I was trying to make it right.

1926
01:43:14,528 --> 01:43:15,921
Let me tell you something.

1927
01:43:16,617 --> 01:43:18,270
You will never ever

1928
01:43:18,271 --> 01:43:20,403
be able to fix the things
you've done to me.

1929
01:43:21,578 --> 01:43:22,666
You hear me?

1930
01:43:23,450 --> 01:43:25,103
I want my life back.

1931
01:43:25,104 --> 01:43:26,366
I want my child back.

1932
01:43:27,497 --> 01:43:30,109
My baby, my... Molly.

1933
01:43:31,458 --> 01:43:32,980
You took my baby away from me!

1934
01:43:32,981 --> 01:43:34,329
Dad! Enough.

1935
01:43:34,330 --> 01:43:35,636
Nah, it's okay.

1936
01:43:37,377 --> 01:43:38,378
Say it.

1937
01:43:39,814 --> 01:43:41,250
Shit, I wanted to hate you.

1938
01:43:42,643 --> 01:43:43,862
But I stopped myself.

1939
01:43:46,516 --> 01:43:49,780
And when you walked into
that meeting, I thought...

1940
01:43:50,781 --> 01:43:53,087
This is God testing me.

1941
01:43:53,088 --> 01:43:57,483
This is proof of a higher power

1942
01:43:57,484 --> 01:43:59,703
testing me in this church.

1943
01:44:01,401 --> 01:44:02,793
Trying to see
if he could break me.

1944
01:44:03,882 --> 01:44:05,013
But I'll show him.

1945
01:44:07,711 --> 01:44:08,887
I'm unbreakable.

1946
01:44:10,410 --> 01:44:12,238
I will offer my hand

1947
01:44:12,934 --> 01:44:14,544
to this sorry

1948
01:44:15,371 --> 01:44:19,287
little fucking pill-junkie.

1949
01:44:19,288 --> 01:44:22,465
All I asked you to do
was stay away from this child.

1950
01:44:23,945 --> 01:44:24,990
Now look at her.

1951
01:44:26,339 --> 01:44:27,601
She got no mother.

1952
01:44:29,777 --> 01:44:30,778
No father.

1953
01:44:32,867 --> 01:44:34,825
And how many years
can I have left?

1954
01:44:37,176 --> 01:44:39,526
What a fucking waste you are.

1955
01:44:39,874 --> 01:44:40,788
Dad!

1956
01:44:40,789 --> 01:44:43,834
What a fucking waste of a soul.

1957
01:44:45,924 --> 01:44:47,185
Of a chance.

1958
01:44:47,186 --> 01:44:49,535
Danny, enough.
You've said your piece.

1959
01:44:49,536 --> 01:44:51,451
This isn't
how it was supposed to be.

1960
01:44:53,496 --> 01:44:54,671
I'm a good person.

1961
01:44:56,630 --> 01:44:58,806
I never said God has to be fair.

1962
01:44:59,589 --> 01:45:00,721
I just never thought

1963
01:45:02,331 --> 01:45:03,637
he could be this cruel.

1964
01:45:07,249 --> 01:45:08,554
Taxi!

1965
01:45:08,555 --> 01:45:09,990
Hold on, Danny,
let me take you home.

1966
01:45:09,991 --> 01:45:11,078
No.

1967
01:45:11,079 --> 01:45:14,081
I'll go with him.
Hey! Hey, Ryan!

1968
01:45:14,082 --> 01:45:16,519
Come on, wake up.
We're taking you home.

1969
01:45:29,837 --> 01:45:31,925
You drank!

1970
01:45:31,926 --> 01:45:35,974
You turned your map app
back on at 17:36:22.

1971
01:45:37,279 --> 01:45:40,369
Impact was at 17:36:24.

1972
01:45:41,892 --> 01:45:45,853
Skid marks show you lost
30 feet before you swerved.

1973
01:45:47,028 --> 01:45:49,856
You didn't have time to stop

1974
01:45:49,857 --> 01:45:52,686
because you were looking at
your fucking phone, Allison.

1975
01:45:54,209 --> 01:45:55,732
Stop blaming Alvarez.

1976
01:45:57,169 --> 01:45:59,127
They're dead because of you.

1977
01:46:18,538 --> 01:46:20,539
All right. All right.
It's all right.

1978
01:46:20,540 --> 01:46:21,845
Come here. Come here.

1979
01:46:23,543 --> 01:46:25,719
It's all right. Okay.

1980
01:46:28,852 --> 01:46:30,288
<i>No, that can't go over there.</i>

1981
01:46:30,289 --> 01:46:31,855
That can't...

1982
01:46:32,856 --> 01:46:34,945
That can't... That can't go...

1983
01:47:30,958 --> 01:47:32,220
Good morning.

1984
01:47:32,960 --> 01:47:34,135
Good morning.

1985
01:47:35,484 --> 01:47:37,051
I made a house.

1986
01:47:39,314 --> 01:47:40,663
Do you have a headache?

1987
01:47:43,188 --> 01:47:44,189
Yeah.

1988
01:47:50,151 --> 01:47:51,630
Hey.

1989
01:47:51,631 --> 01:47:53,676
Can I, uh, sell this, please?

1990
01:48:03,121 --> 01:48:04,209
I'll give you $12,500.

1991
01:48:05,645 --> 01:48:07,037
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you.

1992
01:48:07,777 --> 01:48:08,996
It is a beauty.

1993
01:48:12,782 --> 01:48:16,221
<i>♪ I woke up today ♪</i>

1994
01:48:17,961 --> 01:48:20,964
<i>♪ At least that much is true ♪</i>

1995
01:48:24,794 --> 01:48:27,928
<i>♪ I saw what people see ♪</i>

1996
01:48:29,930 --> 01:48:33,890
<i>♪ What a year this made of me ♪</i>

1997
01:48:41,071 --> 01:48:45,249
<i>♪ I tried a hundred times ♪</i>

1998
01:48:45,250 --> 01:48:49,732
<i>♪ But each time
I thought of you ♪</i>

1999
01:48:51,386 --> 01:48:53,213
Thank you.

2000
01:48:53,214 --> 01:48:58,436
<i>♪ I hate myself ♪</i>

2001
01:48:58,437 --> 01:49:02,267
<i>♪ I fuckin' hate myself ♪</i>

2002
01:49:09,230 --> 01:49:13,843
<i>♪ And I ♪</i>

2003
01:49:15,715 --> 01:49:19,545
<i>♪ I want days of pain ♪</i>

2004
01:49:22,243 --> 01:49:25,463
<i>♪ Oh, to feel ♪</i>

2005
01:49:25,464 --> 01:49:29,642
<i>♪ The things I need ♪</i>

2006
01:49:34,299 --> 01:49:36,778
<i>♪ To pay off this shame ♪</i>

2007
01:49:36,779 --> 01:49:40,695
<i>♪ And I know
that makes me broken ♪</i>

2008
01:49:40,696 --> 01:49:44,744
<i>♪ I know that makes me weak ♪</i>

2009
01:49:47,094 --> 01:49:51,316
<i>♪ I guess I'll put
my armor back on now ♪</i>

2010
01:49:52,882 --> 01:49:55,841
<i>♪ I found a way ♪</i>

2011
01:49:55,842 --> 01:49:58,671
<i>♪ But I turned around ♪</i>

2012
01:50:01,151 --> 01:50:03,849
<i>♪ One step to start ♪</i>

2013
01:50:03,850 --> 01:50:08,637
<i>♪ But I'd rather fall down ♪</i>

2014
01:50:11,553 --> 01:50:14,512
<i>♪ Too much of a coward ♪</i>

2015
01:50:14,513 --> 01:50:17,689
<i>♪ To just say I'm wrong ♪</i>

2016
01:50:17,690 --> 01:50:19,821
Grandpa, you are not
gonna believe this.

2017
01:50:19,822 --> 01:50:20,996
One of the girls on the team

2018
01:50:20,997 --> 01:50:22,477
invited me to a party
this weekend.

2019
01:50:22,825 --> 01:50:24,130
You?

2020
01:50:24,131 --> 01:50:25,524
Yes, me!

2021
01:50:29,571 --> 01:50:33,227
<i>♪ Help me, please ♪</i>

2022
01:50:34,837 --> 01:50:38,666
<i>♪ Try to fix yourself ♪</i>

2023
01:50:38,667 --> 01:50:41,453
<i>♪ That's all they said to me ♪</i>

2024
01:50:50,375 --> 01:50:53,421
<i>♪ Try to fix myself ♪</i>

2025
01:50:54,640 --> 01:50:57,991
<i>♪ To know how hard
that would be ♪</i>

2026
01:51:08,218 --> 01:51:09,218
Hi.

2027
01:51:11,352 --> 01:51:12,353
Hi.

2028
01:51:16,618 --> 01:51:18,141
Thank you so much for coming.

2029
01:51:19,273 --> 01:51:20,273
Sure.

2030
01:51:24,713 --> 01:51:26,324
You look great.

2031
01:51:27,237 --> 01:51:28,499
I nearly put makeup on,

2032
01:51:28,500 --> 01:51:30,632
and then I just laughed
at myself.

2033
01:51:32,982 --> 01:51:34,027
Do you like my clips?

2034
01:51:34,767 --> 01:51:36,289
Wow, yeah.

2035
01:51:36,290 --> 01:51:37,726
I stole them from a pharmacy.

2036
01:51:38,466 --> 01:51:39,553
Not recently.

2037
01:51:39,554 --> 01:51:41,730
Like, a while back.

2038
01:51:46,126 --> 01:51:47,387
I don't know where to start.

2039
01:51:47,388 --> 01:51:48,389
That's okay.

2040
01:51:48,955 --> 01:51:50,565
Um, I'll start.

2041
01:51:58,181 --> 01:51:59,879
Nate, I didn't have...

2042
01:52:02,055 --> 01:52:03,535
the faintest idea

2043
01:52:05,058 --> 01:52:07,016
how to handle my own grief.

2044
01:52:10,455 --> 01:52:13,021
I didn't even know
if I was allowed to grieve.

2045
01:52:13,022 --> 01:52:15,372
We were all flailing.

2046
01:52:15,373 --> 01:52:17,549
Yeah, but I abandoned you,

2047
01:52:18,680 --> 01:52:20,334
and that was so selfish.

2048
01:52:22,771 --> 01:52:25,078
I ran as fast as I could
away from you.

2049
01:52:26,253 --> 01:52:28,255
I still wanted you
to be my wife.

2050
01:52:29,735 --> 01:52:30,779
I know.

2051
01:52:35,697 --> 01:52:37,830
But the truth is, Nate, I...

2052
01:52:39,919 --> 01:52:41,529
I was so sure

2053
01:52:43,009 --> 01:52:44,009
I was gonna...

2054
01:52:48,144 --> 01:52:50,277
- try...
- I know.

2055
01:52:52,410 --> 01:52:53,759
And you know I tried.

2056
01:52:56,239 --> 01:52:58,024
I tried, but I couldn't.

2057
01:53:00,548 --> 01:53:02,419
'Cause I didn't wanna
hurt you again.

2058
01:53:02,420 --> 01:53:04,203
It wasn't your fault.

2059
01:53:04,204 --> 01:53:05,379
It was.

2060
01:53:07,120 --> 01:53:08,513
Your dad was right.

2061
01:53:10,123 --> 01:53:11,471
If I hadn't been looking
at my phone,

2062
01:53:11,472 --> 01:53:12,995
I could have stopped in time.

2063
01:53:17,304 --> 01:53:20,350
You deserve an apology that
never came, and I'm so sorry.

2064
01:53:25,007 --> 01:53:26,139
I'm really sorry.

2065
01:53:32,972 --> 01:53:34,886
I've been spending some time
with him lately.

2066
01:53:34,887 --> 01:53:35,931
Yeah.

2067
01:53:37,237 --> 01:53:39,761
Oh, it's a work-in-progress.

2068
01:53:40,980 --> 01:53:41,981
Good.

2069
01:53:45,375 --> 01:53:46,942
He kept me alive, you know.

2070
01:53:50,990 --> 01:53:52,252
I know about your ear.

2071
01:53:58,214 --> 01:54:02,741
Hey... I need you
to be clear on one thing.

2072
01:54:05,526 --> 01:54:07,093
I loved you so much.

2073
01:54:10,836 --> 01:54:12,490
And along with everything else,

2074
01:54:13,969 --> 01:54:15,448
I will forever grieve

2075
01:54:15,449 --> 01:54:17,712
for the life that we might
have had.

2076
01:54:20,585 --> 01:54:21,673
Me too.

2077
01:54:25,241 --> 01:54:27,461
We were a good team.

2078
01:54:28,854 --> 01:54:30,724
It would be nice

2079
01:54:30,725 --> 01:54:32,639
if we could one day
find some way

2080
01:54:32,640 --> 01:54:34,512
to be in each other's lives.

2081
01:54:35,469 --> 01:54:37,035
Maybe that's unrealistic,

2082
01:54:37,036 --> 01:54:38,254
- but...
- Maybe.

2083
01:54:39,386 --> 01:54:40,386
Yeah.

2084
01:54:41,997 --> 01:54:43,172
Maybe.

2085
01:54:54,357 --> 01:54:56,097
I think we can all thank Elaine.

2086
01:54:56,098 --> 01:54:57,708
Thank you so much.

2087
01:54:57,709 --> 01:54:59,971
I really appreciated
getting to know you,

2088
01:54:59,972 --> 01:55:02,060
and talking to you.

2089
01:55:02,061 --> 01:55:04,758
Everybody, our deeply
inappropriate stories

2090
01:55:04,759 --> 01:55:06,151
from yesterday...

2091
01:55:06,152 --> 01:55:09,328
have been well in my head.
King's laughing.

2092
01:55:09,329 --> 01:55:11,723
Your stories are foul.

2093
01:55:13,028 --> 01:55:14,638
Mama,

2094
01:55:14,639 --> 01:55:15,943
I'm so grateful for you.

2095
01:55:15,944 --> 01:55:18,076
Thank you for everything
you've done for me.

2096
01:55:18,077 --> 01:55:19,557
And I love you.

2097
01:55:29,567 --> 01:55:32,569
The food was terrible.
Thank you.

2098
01:55:32,570 --> 01:55:34,527
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2099
01:55:34,528 --> 01:55:37,965
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2100
01:55:37,966 --> 01:55:42,143
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2101
01:55:42,144 --> 01:55:45,320
<i>♪ Sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2102
01:55:45,321 --> 01:55:47,018
<i>♪ But I... ♪</i>

2103
01:55:47,019 --> 01:55:51,589
<i>♪ Oh, I can't tell ♪</i>

2104
01:55:52,677 --> 01:55:58,857
<i>♪ If it hurts or it helps ♪</i>

2105
01:56:01,076 --> 01:56:06,908
<i>♪ So breathe me in ♪</i>

2106
01:56:07,953 --> 01:56:12,392
<i>♪ One last time ♪</i>

2107
01:56:15,700 --> 01:56:18,527
<i>♪ And we play ♪</i>

2108
01:56:18,528 --> 01:56:23,750
<i>♪ Our rehearsed ♪</i>

2109
01:56:23,751 --> 01:56:27,842
<i>♪ Goodbyes ♪</i>

2110
01:56:31,498 --> 01:56:35,327
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2111
01:56:35,328 --> 01:56:39,592
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2112
01:56:39,593 --> 01:56:44,205
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2113
01:56:44,206 --> 01:56:48,036
<i>♪ I sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2114
01:56:49,081 --> 01:56:55,478
<i>♪ But you are the best part ♪</i>

2115
01:56:57,176 --> 01:57:02,442
<i>♪ You ♪</i>

2116
01:57:05,271 --> 01:57:06,533
Thank you.

2117
01:57:10,058 --> 01:57:13,582
Um, I recently recorded
my first EP,

2118
01:57:13,583 --> 01:57:15,019
and it's at the coat check

2119
01:57:15,020 --> 01:57:17,499
because I'm also
the coat check girl.

2120
01:57:17,500 --> 01:57:19,676
Uh, so come buy a CD,

2121
01:57:19,677 --> 01:57:21,200
or I won't give you
your coats back.

2122
01:57:32,515 --> 01:57:34,299
Hi.

2123
01:57:34,300 --> 01:57:36,301
I know you're calling
about my one-year clean,

2124
01:57:36,302 --> 01:57:38,478
but I need to tell you
what I just did.

2125
01:57:41,220 --> 01:57:42,743
Yeah. No, I can talk.

2126
01:57:44,527 --> 01:57:45,527
Okay.

2127
01:57:58,628 --> 01:57:59,890
Hey, Dwayne.

2128
01:57:59,891 --> 01:58:01,413
Could you take these
to the kitchen for me?

2129
01:58:01,414 --> 01:58:03,068
Thank you so much.

2130
01:58:05,810 --> 01:58:07,506
She'll give it back.
Right, Ryan?

2131
01:58:07,507 --> 01:58:08,986
That's nice.
Thank you.

2132
01:58:08,987 --> 01:58:12,293
Hey. How's it going?
Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes.

2133
01:58:12,294 --> 01:58:14,643
- Need any help?
- No, no, no. I'm all good. Thank you.

2134
01:58:14,644 --> 01:58:15,602
Actually, we broke up

2135
01:58:15,603 --> 01:58:16,820
- a few months ago.
- Yeah...

2136
01:58:16,821 --> 01:58:18,125
Hey, Mama.
Yes?

2137
01:58:18,126 --> 01:58:20,824
Could you go pass these around
over there?

2138
01:58:20,825 --> 01:58:21,955
I think they would like some.

2139
01:58:21,956 --> 01:58:23,217
- Sure.
- Thank you.

2140
01:58:23,218 --> 01:58:25,394
- Ooh, they smell so good.
- They are good.

2141
01:59:39,381 --> 01:59:41,078
<i>Dear Allison.</i>

2142
01:59:41,079 --> 01:59:44,603
<i>Down here in 1:87 scale,</i>

2143
01:59:44,604 --> 01:59:46,171
<i>the lovers always kiss,</i>

2144
01:59:47,041 --> 01:59:49,738
<i>the neighbors are always kind,</i>

2145
01:59:49,739 --> 01:59:52,785
<i>and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

2146
01:59:52,786 --> 01:59:55,049
<i>you always swore you'd go.</i>

2147
01:59:56,746 --> 01:59:58,878
<i>In life, of course,</i>

2148
01:59:58,879 --> 02:00:01,142
<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

2149
02:00:02,883 --> 02:00:06,017
<i>Everything I own has been left
to Nathan and Ryan.</i>

2150
02:00:07,018 --> 02:00:08,845
<i>Nathan has agreed to move home</i>

2151
02:00:08,846 --> 02:00:11,631
<i>and be her guardian
until she's off to college.</i>

2152
02:00:12,762 --> 02:00:13,894
<i>He'll need help.</i>

2153
02:00:14,895 --> 02:00:17,549
<i>Please help him, Allie.</i>

2154
02:00:17,550 --> 02:00:20,987
<i>Molly always said Nathan was
the best version of himself</i>

2155
02:00:20,988 --> 02:00:22,163
<i>when he was with you.</i>

2156
02:00:23,382 --> 02:00:25,035
<i>Who knows,</i>

2157
02:00:25,036 --> 02:00:29,604
<i>maybe you can even get her
into Stanford.</i>

2158
02:00:29,605 --> 02:00:31,564
<i>When we first met in that diner,</i>

2159
02:00:32,434 --> 02:00:35,219
<i>you asked what my tattoo meant.</i>

2160
02:00:35,220 --> 02:00:38,178
Amor fati <i>is Latin.</i>

2161
02:00:38,179 --> 02:00:40,355
<i>It means "to love one's fate."</i>

2162
02:00:41,574 --> 02:00:44,837
<i>Neither of us
chose this fate, Allie.</i>

2163
02:00:44,838 --> 02:00:48,493
<i>But perhaps we can find a way
to love it.</i>

2164
02:00:48,494 --> 02:00:52,584
<i>Fate has given me
one final year with my son.</i>

2165
02:00:52,585 --> 02:00:55,717
<i>He looks at me differently
these days.</i>

2166
02:00:55,718 --> 02:00:58,807
<i>Once in a while I even
catch him smiling at me</i>

2167
02:00:58,808 --> 02:01:02,160
<i>with a look that might
just even be love.</i>

2168
02:01:03,509 --> 02:01:05,554
Amor fati, <i>Allison.</i>

2169
02:01:06,729 --> 02:01:08,079
<i>Until we meet again,</i>

2170
02:01:09,471 --> 02:01:10,472
<i>Daniel.</i>

2171
02:01:13,998 --> 02:01:14,999
Allie?

2172
02:01:15,608 --> 02:01:16,913
Yeah?

2173
02:01:16,914 --> 02:01:18,002
What are you doing?

2174
02:01:19,438 --> 02:01:20,525
Come on upstairs.

2175
02:01:20,526 --> 02:01:21,526
Yeah, okay.

2176
02:01:47,118 --> 02:01:52,123
<i>♪ Down in the valley
the first of May ♪</i>

2177
02:01:55,691 --> 02:02:01,306
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both fresh and gay ♪</i>

2178
02:02:04,396 --> 02:02:11,358
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both red and blue ♪</i>

2179
02:02:11,359 --> 02:02:13,492
<i>♪ How little thought
of what... ♪</i>

2180
02:02:16,321 --> 02:02:18,671
<i>♪ ...what love could you do ♪</i>

2181
02:02:20,107 --> 02:02:24,372
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2182
02:02:27,985 --> 02:02:32,163
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2183
02:02:37,472 --> 02:02:40,998
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2184
02:02:45,306 --> 02:02:48,962
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2185
02:02:56,361 --> 02:03:01,844
<i>♪ I put my hand in
into the bush ♪</i>

2186
02:03:05,326 --> 02:03:09,330
<i>♪ Finding the sweetest
sweetest rose ♪</i>

2187
02:03:13,682 --> 02:03:19,601
<i>♪ I pricked my finger
deep to the line ♪</i>

2188
02:03:20,733 --> 02:03:24,997
<i>♪ And left the sweetest rose ♪</i>

2189
02:03:24,998 --> 02:03:29,306
<i>♪ Sweetest rose behind ♪</i>

2190
02:03:29,307 --> 02:03:32,832
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2191
02:03:37,184 --> 02:03:40,927
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2192
02:03:46,498 --> 02:03:50,415
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2193
02:03:54,332 --> 02:03:58,727
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2194
02:04:38,027 --> 02:04:42,641
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2195
02:04:45,731 --> 02:04:49,648
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2196
02:04:55,175 --> 02:05:00,093
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2197
02:05:03,227 --> 02:05:07,187
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2198
02:05:13,933 --> 02:05:19,460
<i>♪ Thousands and thousands
all on this Earth ♪</i>

2199
02:05:32,734 --> 02:05:36,259
<i>♪ Honey you've been
on my mind ♪</i>

2200
02:05:36,260 --> 02:05:39,740
<i>♪ Like Christmas and birthdays
when I was five ♪</i>

2201
02:05:39,741 --> 02:05:41,916
<i>♪ Like the ticking clock
for racers ♪</i>

2202
02:05:41,917 --> 02:05:44,049
<i>♪ And those
in the prison line ♪</i>

2203
02:05:44,050 --> 02:05:47,748
<i>♪ Like Everest for Mallory and
how drinkers know their wine ♪</i>

2204
02:05:47,749 --> 02:05:51,448
<i>♪ And the birds and the bees
when you hit nine ♪</i>

2205
02:05:51,449 --> 02:05:55,582
♪ And pearls for those girls

2206
02:05:55,583 --> 02:05:59,238
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2207
02:05:59,239 --> 02:06:07,239
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2208
02:06:08,466 --> 02:06:11,990
<i>♪ Honey you've been
in my head ♪</i>

2209
02:06:11,991 --> 02:06:15,950
<i>♪ Like homework on Sunday when
I've been laughing instead ♪</i>

2210
02:06:15,951 --> 02:06:19,824
<i>♪ Like cigarettes for the cool
kids behind the garden shed ♪</i>

2211
02:06:19,825 --> 02:06:24,481
<i>♪ And love for the lovers
and the elephant by my bed ♪</i>

2212
02:06:24,482 --> 02:06:28,528
<i>♪ And pearls for those girls ♪</i>

2213
02:06:28,529 --> 02:06:32,489
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2214
02:06:32,490 --> 02:06:36,580
<i>♪ And football
for English boys ♪</i>

2215
02:06:36,581 --> 02:06:40,323
<i>♪ Who always have
the newest toys ♪</i>

2216
02:06:40,324 --> 02:06:48,324
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2217
02:06:57,384 --> 02:07:04,130
<i>♪ So don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2218
02:07:05,566 --> 02:07:13,566
<i>♪ Oh don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2219
02:07:19,928 --> 02:07:24,105
<i>♪ Oh don't you go ♪</i>

2220
02:07:24,106 --> 02:07:28,066
<i>♪ Away too long ♪</i>

2221
02:07:28,067 --> 02:07:32,289
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2222
02:07:33,202 --> 02:07:38,207
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>